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12-31-2004, 01:18 AM
Some people believe we forever reserve a small piece of our hearts for those who were once a special love in our lives. While this reserved space is often not 'consciously' set aside for someone we have loved, some precious memory of the relationship, perhaps a small warm glow, often resides within us for as long as we live, like a love letter long preserved in a desk drawer.
But a love letter will have been purposely saved, while a wispy tendril of feelings leftover from a love affair tend to cling, despite the passage of many years, despite our efforts to banish them forever, or despite efforts to preserve all that we may have felt. Most often we are just left with a lifelong conditioned response that manifests itself as a vague tug at our heartstrings.......
I have known love more than once, as most people shall during their travels through life. There is no big secret to attaining love, there is no telling when we may lose it, and there is no gauging the intensity when you are caught up in it.
I still have nightmares one or twice a year where I will wake up all stressed out, anxious, sometimes angry, but missing that person nonetheless. I don't often think of her, but when I do she invades my mind like a virus and it may take a week or two to dislodge her from my thoughts. Her effect on me is powerful, inevitable, sweet, dreamy and damning all at once.
We learned alot about life, together. She taught me. I taught her. We shared our strengths, and did not hide our weaknesses from each other, and fell much deeper in love because of that.....
I haven't seen or talked to her for a few years now. But she called me tonight. I'm not sure how she located me, and I'll probably not see, or hear from her again, for many years more. But she'll spend an eternity in a shadowed corner of my heart.
How are the rest of you dealing with lost, unrequited, or passed loves?
But a love letter will have been purposely saved, while a wispy tendril of feelings leftover from a love affair tend to cling, despite the passage of many years, despite our efforts to banish them forever, or despite efforts to preserve all that we may have felt. Most often we are just left with a lifelong conditioned response that manifests itself as a vague tug at our heartstrings.......
I have known love more than once, as most people shall during their travels through life. There is no big secret to attaining love, there is no telling when we may lose it, and there is no gauging the intensity when you are caught up in it.
I still have nightmares one or twice a year where I will wake up all stressed out, anxious, sometimes angry, but missing that person nonetheless. I don't often think of her, but when I do she invades my mind like a virus and it may take a week or two to dislodge her from my thoughts. Her effect on me is powerful, inevitable, sweet, dreamy and damning all at once.
We learned alot about life, together. She taught me. I taught her. We shared our strengths, and did not hide our weaknesses from each other, and fell much deeper in love because of that.....
I haven't seen or talked to her for a few years now. But she called me tonight. I'm not sure how she located me, and I'll probably not see, or hear from her again, for many years more. But she'll spend an eternity in a shadowed corner of my heart.
How are the rest of you dealing with lost, unrequited, or passed loves?