mcinnes
07-04-2008, 02:09 AM
When I move all I can think about is, how delicate of an action this is. That in fact I am a living breathing creature, with thoughts and feelings. It is a totally unreal circumstance that in face I can do this. Biomechanically it can make sense, I understand biology and motor function. Then poses the thought, “well how did this al come together?” Again Darwin theory on evoloution and a very long time of breeding, but then again there seems to be more. Purpose! God and all his creations come to mind the understanding of creation, and reasoning behind our existence strikes me as something incredibly important. What intrigues me is that inside my head all these thoughts and emotions are running ramped. It is not like the typical cinema story of all I long for is love and ‘ideal’ happiness, to be frank I care little for either. Aside from the overwhelming annoyance with general things, as well as an obsession to do certain things, i.e. exercise, live well, and what not These are all and well, but in relation to other people in the world, seem different. Children are preoccupied with nothing more than fun and leisure, which I embrace. Teenage children like alcohol, possibly trying to be perceived as more grown up? There is a reasonable possibility, but then again sleeping in till noon, and partying makes for a stressful day. In my experience typical is far and wide in these ridiculous behaviours, and lack of proper thought and understanding. The children lacking in ‘normal’ intelligence act like gangsters and hip hoppers,. These actions are brought on by trying to be similar to the media poster boys of music. Majority of teens, engage in binge drinking, and partying, furthermore when they reach an age of maturity they look back in success of them accomplishing a whole lot of nothing. There are rebellious folk as well, whom wear varying arrangements of attire, all of which of resemble nothing that is there adult counterparts. These parents who give them vehicles to drive, loads of capital, still come across as being bad people? The smart children act spontaneous and random, trying to seem unique because they enjoy the concept that they are better in one lame unimportant aspect of life. Which in reality it comes down to common sense, and understanding of people. Grades are a need, but sensibility is as crucial. Then there are seemingly arrogant people like myself whom write pieces like this trying to prove how dumbfounded everything is, and new ways of thinking, you could not be more right. I am not out to prove anything, simply mirroring the thoughts that I feel, to better understand them. As we age apparent maturity sets in and the idea that we are providers, natures etc, com into play. Well this is not all that it seems, because in reality it is a big case of trial and error, and the actual task of it is not difficult only the wall it imposes is. Parents build up barriers that make there life unmanageable, and sometimes pathetic. My mother cleans house for several hours a day on meaningless chores, like laundry and dishes. She thrives for perfection when in reality, if the two other people in my household took care of their own laundry and what not. There would be no problem. The fact is it is not that much, just she makes it seem like so much. WHY? To fill an unreal ting void that doing one more load will better herself because, IT WONT! You know what will, relaxing, playing a game etc. This is a typical action among people, it is rather sad to watch and listen to, as there could be such an easier outcome. As we grow old, our old pet habitats stick out, with our lack of ability to absorb new information. Bottom line we all turn into annoying, absent minded loony’s. Well women do, with obsessive, nature and drop in estrogens there whole exsoct to be attractive, they loose sight on life. Men turn sleepy and mute, to avoid conflict with there painful to be around spouse. This is what I have to look forward too. There are more concepts in this too which I prefer not to divulge, but the just that I stated is, chances are were all going to end up this way, in some form. That is not too say there not happy. I just don’t want to be like that. See the crazy thing is our brain will rationalize each one of these, behaviours, make an excuse for it, and say its okay. Take a moment and try to imagine that just behind your eyes, this big mass of slimy, ridged flesh, is giving you the ability to read this. It allows your hands to type, throw a ball, love, understand etc. Amazing tool right, although, it will allow you to act like a bafoon, through out your entire life. It allows people to kill, thrive on it. When I think to myself every murder, serial killer, rapsits and what not, has one of these. That they can relate on levels with me, I find that disturbing. Even more unimaginable there are seven billion other people, all having thoughts and feelings. That is an UNIMAGINABLE number, so high, and in retrospect, being obesses with a tidy house and a nice car seems pretty unimportant. A lot of people starve daily, have zero education, no electricity, but in the grand scheme of things we can do little. Unless all leaders, and citizens band together and restrucutre the enire working of the world, there will always end up being someone who gets shafted. Again this bothers me. Imagine being stripped of everything but your underwear, sleeping in a mud hut, in 45 degree weather. Having mushed up plants for your one meal a day. Everyone is filled with superseded need for more they forget this fact. You cannot blame yourself or almost anyone, it just happened. It all stems from a `normal`person who just did the wrong thing a few times, repeated by many other people. They are no different from you and there actions hurt people no different than you. Many people fall into the belief that, someone else, i.e. government will take care of poorer, less fortunate people, they will not. It is small groups that do this, mass numbers do not work, yet. I foresee joint partnerships soon to abolish all poverty, and hunger. It has to happen, lobbyists will work on that in the next century. For the meantime petty small groups will work, and help limit this, but it is a big undertaking. To think all this wonder, issues, and miracle, happens by that crazy thing you call your being.
PLEASE COMMENT THIS IS A ROUGH DRAFT, I NEED INPUT THANKS:)
PLEASE COMMENT THIS IS A ROUGH DRAFT, I NEED INPUT THANKS:)