Ikonic
06-03-2008, 01:14 PM
I lie, half asleep, head jammed between too pillows. Her scent makes my heart pound heavy, my stomach warm. Nothing compares to her. I slowly open my eyes, gradually. The light from the room floods into my eyes.
My heart sinks, for she is not there. Not any longer. Sometimes the dreams feel so real that for a second, its reality. Until that same reality comes back and smashes me, crushes me - Like a blow to the face i collapse back into the bed. I can smell her again - the smell eating away at me like nothing before, destroying me, I know she will never be mine again. I know it but i fail to acknowledge it. She's all i have - all i had.
I scramble to my feet. Where's my phone? What if shes rung? What if shes texted me? I find it lying perched against last nights pizza. This place is like a rubbish dump, why bother to clean it, for who?
i pick up the phone, and just look at it, unable to turn it on. Why? 'Rejection'. My heart pounds harder against my frame, i turn it on, some what cautiously.
'No new messages'
My heart sinks, for she is not there. Not any longer. Sometimes the dreams feel so real that for a second, its reality. Until that same reality comes back and smashes me, crushes me - Like a blow to the face i collapse back into the bed. I can smell her again - the smell eating away at me like nothing before, destroying me, I know she will never be mine again. I know it but i fail to acknowledge it. She's all i have - all i had.
I scramble to my feet. Where's my phone? What if shes rung? What if shes texted me? I find it lying perched against last nights pizza. This place is like a rubbish dump, why bother to clean it, for who?
i pick up the phone, and just look at it, unable to turn it on. Why? 'Rejection'. My heart pounds harder against my frame, i turn it on, some what cautiously.
'No new messages'