Drugs Took My Only Sister Away

[suziemb]

Drugs Took My Only Sister Away

I can still hear those words echoing over and over in my head
Those hurtful words that we both said

I cannot help but to think about how life used to be
Before drugs took my only sister away from me

I know that God does not give us more than we can bare
I just pray that he helps us find the strength somewhere

Sisters forever intertwined with all of our imperfections
Predestined to learn from our own life lessons

In my head, I know that you must choose your own way
But in my heart my love for you will always stay

Helpless and confused, all I know left to do is pray
Pray that a miracle will bring my only sister back one day

[Bruce Bradley]

I loved your poem, I told you I would look for your post when I finished my reply. I also lost my brother to a drug overdose. My father had just given me a Mucci Pool Stick for Christmas. I had just gotten my 10% end of the year bonus from work and I decided to make up with my brother and give $50.00 for Christmas and get him to shoot me some pool with my new stick.

The bedroom door was closed and I beat on it and hollered and did not get an answer. I then looked in the garage and his car was there. I then tried the door which he usually kept locked while he was sleeping. It was unlocked and I tried to open it and he as laying on his back and legs were bent and sticking in the air. I felt as if I was going to have a heart attack. I ran and told my dad that I thought he was dead. He wanted to make sure before we called anybody. I went back to the house and grabbed one of his legs and tried to lift it. It was stiff. I just hope nobody will ever endure that with someone they love. I know my blood pressure shot up and I dropped his leg and ran back to my dad's. I have never had anything hurt me that bad, it happened on the 21st of December and ruined my Christmas. I am sorry I still have not completely recovered from it and I know some what how you feel. Do you have any other siblings. I am truly sorry for your loss and I also sorry about sharing my ordeal with you while are obviously still hurting too. Sometimes I don't think. I going to leave my words because if it helps it is worth every word. Sometimes it helps to share pain with somebody who know the pain you are having. Sorry once more, I just hope this helps you.

Bruce

[suziemb]

Thank you so much Bruce for your kind words. I'm truely sorry about your brother. My sister is still alive but I'm so afraid that she may end up like your brother because she refuses to straighten out her life and get off drugs. Thanks again, it does help to hear from someone who knows what you are going through. I look forward to reading more of your poems in the future. Suzie

[Pendragon]

A sad but beautiful poem. It wasn't drugs, but the fact that I have an illness that took my brother and sister away from me. The pain and the loneliness and constant worry, for my brother has MS now and needs me, but he won't have me around. I'll pray for you and your sister!

[suziemb]

Thank you Pendragon. I will pray for brother. Suzie

[formality hater]

The poem sure came straight from your heart!

[Bruce Bradley]

This is what makes this such a wonderful website. To be able to speak your thoughts and feelings without having to worry about someone you wouldn't want to know finding out what you wrote in your post. It allows us to speak the truth more freely without the fear retaliation. I know one thing Suzie when someone is addicted to drugs, it is their fault for starting to use them but they are not alone in their addiction. It is now known to be a disease and a major problem across the globe.

It is so bad because people don't realize when they start how it can progress and control your mind and body. It's sad to see someone you love in this stage of digression. It will usually take a traumatic experience to make them stop. All you can do is support them and hope the traumatic experience isn't death. Make sure you tell them as often as possible that you love them. You never know when you won't be able to again. I know this is very sad for you but hopefully she will get busted and have to take drug test or go to jail. Jail is something they fear more than anything. They are out of luck when that happens and they get no sympathy from the guards and jail mates.

I too will say a prayer for you in hopes that it doesn't ever have to go to that extreme. You may try to getting her to read your poem so she knows how you feel. Depending on how far she is along she will either get mad or hug your neck. Either way she will still love you. I wish I had done something like that with my brother. Thanks for listening believe me it helps me to talk about and not let it bottle up inside myself. Your a victim in this and no one will get you help. The worse thing to do is blow up on her. Keep doing what your doing I have found writing your feelings will help you. Remember she can't argue with something you've written. Good luck and I hope this has helped and again I will say a prayer for you, your sister and pendragon's brother.

[kiz_paws]

Suzie, your poem is beautiful and I really hope that one day your sister will realize how much she is loved and try to get help. I'll be thinking of you.

Bruce, I am so sorry to read about your brother. Your posts are informative, helpful and supportive. I hope that things get better for you, please take care. :)

Pen, I was sorry to read about your brother, hope that things work out better and that you two can get together. :)