Can I?

[forcedtobe]

Can i scream?
Can i just tell it all?
Can i just foret the worries?

Cause thats what i want to do,
But i cant, i wont

Will it please rain,
To release the pain,
The annoyance, the fear

To let go of the hurt
And sadness
And clear my mind of worries
I need the rain i need it clean

Can i just stop wondering
And waiting
Questioning and hoping

Can i just know
Once and for all?

Can i just let it all out
And show what i know
My deepest secrets,
Can i show them all
Can i show it?
No.

[forcedtobe]

WHY?

Why is it i say hi
And talk
But no one responds?

Why is it
That what ever i think will work,
Doesnt?

Why is it,
That no one ever tries to talk to me
Or listen and care?

Why is it,
That no one ever knows what to say,
Or that they will just stop talking

Why is it,
That it seems no one cares,
And when they do,
Something happens and then
Nothing matters anymore
And i'm back where i began
Except this time,
I have an idea of what its
Supposed to be like,
So i want it more,
Why is it i always feel this way?

Why am i always the one left out?
The one on the outskirts,
The one who has no clue whats happening,
Yet i'm the one that can relate,
And tries to help, but it always goes wrong

Why??

[forcedtobe]

Here I sit,
Pencil in hand
Chewed up straw
In mouth

Youtube opened
In front of me,
"Everything is crashing,
Falling hard, and so am I"
Is my page title above my
Pic. surrounded by black

Listening to Kelly Clarkson,
Music I thought I had left,
Grown away from.

But to my own sadness,
I relate to it all
More then ever
Feeling the words
As mine own,
Knowing the sadness she feels

Here I sit,
Waiting for someone
To get on, and cheer
Me up
And I remember the message
I got, he's clearing his head

As I'm here, I'm fearing the
Worst, as always, knowing
Whats at stake

He is so my everything,
And I dont want to loose him
I dont want to loose his words,
His care, His bad jokes.
I dont want to loose
What we seem to have,
I dont know how to describe it,
Just that my heart...its going
Green with love

But is it true?
Or is it wishful thinking,
For such a great guy?

I dont know, but its hurting me,
To know he's hurting and confused
And i dont know what to do..

[kelby_lake]

why? i'm not sure. can you? not really. it does seem a bit rambly to me, imo.

[blazeofglory]

You can do all you want as a matter of fact. You are the master of your own and nothing can stop you except your conscience.