Gone

[forcedtobe]

I write,
I tell it as
I see it
I write
And show my
Thoughts,
Desires, wants,
And fears

I write
And I feel it,
It all goes away
The fear,
The sorrow,
The hurt

But when I write
Something happy,
It leaves too
That memory,
It no longer makes
Me smile,
Its just gone

Now I fear,
To write my few
Happy times,
For fear
They will leave

[forcedtobe]

I sit,
Waiting to
Be seated.
I watch a dad,
Playing with his
Little son.
I watch a girl
And her dad.

He holds her,
And loves her,
You can see.
He watches her,
And makes her laugh.

I sit in front,
Watching them
Closing my eyes,
Trying to hold
It all in.