when i

[caelycate]

when i sing, i sing of you
of green eyes
and shy, half hidden smiles
of freckled nose
and beautiful poet's prose

when i dream, i dream of you
of a safe place that i once knew
and of another time,
another life, distant but true

i never thought i was a romantic
until i was consumed
with romancing you

when i drink, i drink of you
so that i might be solid, strong
and when i walk, i walk towards you
towards the place where we will meet
and the moment for which we've been waiting
the moment that we both seek

i never thought i was a romantic
until i was consumed
with romancing you

i know this because when i am, i am for you
i am
of nakedness, exposed but not scared
and of all the half dreams
from which i've been made
and unmade

i know all of this to be true
i know it from the very root
from the very seed from which i grew

and finally, i know
that when i love, i will love no one but you
i will love you
as death loves the crow
and cupid loves his arrow
and his bow

i will love no one but you

[caelycate]

these words are dark i know
and i've never quite understood
just how to show the others
the silver lining hidden in this mess

i use these words
i put pen to paper
but still i don't know how to explain
i don't know how to make them understand

that it is this mess,
it is this raw, harrowing darkness
that gives me enough light
to have a silver lining

it is this mess
that makes me me