Inner Fumblings

[bonstermonster3]

Inner Fumblings

Never had I believed
That anything could bring relief
To my hateful and pained heart, by then a black pit
I know now God heard my deepest wish
When I finally dropped to my knees
Before Him, I fell; my demons He did kill
And I knew there something I was destined to fulfill
In His sight, I know I was then beautiful
So crystalline in thought and intention
When I unexpectedly stumbled into an undeniable connection
Besides my wholehearted repentance, nothing had ever seemed so certain
Than that I was instructed to love and sustain this man
Though some of the dreams I then dreamt have been crushed
Your warm skin on mine still leaves me flushed
My soul has been fighting an intense battle concerning you
In the midst, evil whisperings that your heart is untrue
And that when I couldn't help but believe on that November morning
I once again sealed my fate as a d**n fool
Fear and shame have been keeping me cornered and left to cower
Just beyond seeking your reach and God's healing power
While I know not when my inner turmoil will come to an end
You needn't worry over the faithfulness and endurance of my heart
I will soon eternally give you my hand
Please don't think my feelings have grown dim
My love for you is blessed by Him
I feel a failure in all eyes concerned
But lately the truth and lies have been hard to discern
So until my soul is at peace again
And I return to clarity
I hope you feel no pain
And will say a prayer for me

Bonnie

That's the first poem I think I've ever written. Please go easy on me if you don't like it. :yawnb:

[lucidnightmares]

that was your first poem?
it`s very well written and full of emotions
i enjoyed it played out
as easily as something is found it`s easier still to lose

"While I know not when my inner turmoil will come to an end
You needn't worry over the faithfulness and endurance of my heart"

even though it feels like your a burden on people when you complain, or let out your pain, i think it`s kind of a necessity.
however it is admirable that your willing to bear the burden alone.
well that`s at least what i thought about that line anyway`s.
all in all i think it was beautiful piece
i`d like to see more poems of yours in the future, and keep up the good work
and excellent piece to start what i`m sure will be a wonderful collection:thumbs_up

[Auriga]

I agree. That was a very captivating poem. It took you in and made you feel all that was being felt by the writer, which is really moving. Congradulations.