My Funeral Is Scheduled

[wagravity]

Hold it in, fake a smile
I'll be gone for more than awhile
I can't live like this
My funeral is scheduled
My eyes relaxing shut
I can't build the strength
To even think of opening up
You can't force them wide
Rusted shut from all the tears I've cried
Despair has taken over
I'm out of four leaf clovers
My luck is finally up
To think that everyone gives a ****
Blame it on cupid
We aren't stupid
I think of what I'm losing
I hope you read before I go
Perhaps it could soften the blow
Find out everything you didn't know
All the feelings I couldn't show

Tell my mother I love her
Tell your father I'm sorry
I hurt his baby
Maybe, you were my baby too
The sooner I am gone
The quicker you can move on
Don't cry at my wake
Don't cry at my funeral
The preacher knew me well
Tell tales, TALL TALL TALES
Of how my life went stale
I breathe in soil
Just my luck again
A broken coffin
This is what THE ALMIGHTY gave me
I sit in hell for what I've done
I'm burning well now, just for fun
Write me a letter with your thoughts
Through prayer is the only way to save me
Or trap me here for eternity

I wish things could be different
I regret having regrets
Plea with God when you see him
To bring me up to you again
The fire scars just add character
The lonesome solitude I live
Can be put in my past because of you
They've been waiting for me
I know from all of your pictures on the wall
It's torturing me
This is my own personal hell
It was a car accident
Just like I always said it would be
I'm so glad you weren't with me
Did I look good when they dressed me up?
No matter how hard I tried at life
It was never enough
Speak of me and what I've done
The preacher knew me well
My funeral is scheduled

[blp]

Don't do it, wagravity.

[wagravity]

this isn't a suicide note, it's just a poem in the perspective of already beng dead and in hell. a perspective few take on. it's not about "doing" anything, the point of this is that it' already been done.