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[B-Mental]

I have good news and bad news...what first
FUDGE!
I met the women of my dreams
and she is everything I thought she would be
we had a date, and the very next night we...
well...
just happened to bump into each other...(true dat)

And so it goes...on and on
Oh! It was her birthday tonight! (Saturday, Jan. 19, 2008 AD)
What a time we had...man...here I would throw a cowbell in,
but nope not me...no I've..
She.
I'm not...
depressed
but ...
...

Why the hell did she have to tell me...?
I didn't see this coming and you won't either...
She had a procedure...just the other day.
FUDGE!
Fudge the rankest nastiest piece.
You know from the dankest dungeon from hell!
Why? Why? Why would you do this to me "Dear" Lord?
Why? Why/\pray I....MUST SHE HAVE CANCER?

:::God sat there with a silly grin on his face:::
(the man continued)

I am not Lot...nor am I Abraham...
nor Muhammud
nor Jonah
no...I am Pete, Son O' Mouse and Mary
I am the one you continue to frustrate
and I have become slightly annoyed
...
:::
:::...
I know the doctor's say she has 6 months to live,
well one does, and the other says 2 years...
and the other says the others are wrong...
"She is fine...!"
Well, I've been beaten, abused,
shot, stabbed, crushed, thrown,
tossed, dropped, and somehow I've managed to stand up
without a drug, without a doctor, without a care...
I stood there and took this **** from you again, and again
with a smile on my face, and a word of praise on my lips
I did this for 40 years...well 39, but even in the womb
you ****ed with me...and tried to kill me and my mother
You stole my father, my daughter...and
this time I shall take NO MORE...

I will not let you take this from me so soon!
:::::God giggled to himself and thought "Really? OH...Joy...Think you can little man!"::::


to be continued in B's blog...this one hurts ten different ways from sideways...(True Dat!)

PS~If I have to ***** slap the creator, and tell him/her where I'm going to shove my cowbell...the exact orientation, and amount of FORCE I will use to do it, so that even God blanches his/her face...
Budha sighed in relief...Allah, blinked, ...the elves,dwarves, leprechauns, dragons, and others said..."Well, Its about TIME!"

PSS~ Apparently, God likes SMORES...cuz the devil done started makin' him a banquet...and war, poverty, pestilence, pain and misery made a $50 dollar bet on the Green Bay Packers to win the Superbowl...! (True DAT!)

[Niamh]

B? wanna hug? http://i252.photobucket.com/albums/hh16/centurysun/hug.gif

[B-Mental]

probably gonna need more than one on this one Niamh...sigh...

[Niamh]

just because its you B...
http://i252.photobucket.com/albums/hh16/centurysun/hug.gif x1,000,000,00

[B-Mental]

thnx so much...

[Niamh]

if you need someone to talk to we are all here for you.

[Shea]

:( Hugs to B! And since we've been talking tea in another thread, can I make you a cup? That always makes me feel a lil' better.

[B-Mental]

Thanks Niamh...I know you guys are there...

And thanks to you too Shea...I think a cup of tea sounds Dandy...good for the soul I do believe my soul could use it.

[Sweets America]

My ex-boyfriend had cancer too. Sometimes I am baffled to see how life can put a lot of horrible things on one person.
My thoughts are with you, B.

[Pensive]

So sorry to hear this, B. I can understand your despondency, probably not as well as you can but still I can guess what it must be like. Don't let go of courage!

[B-Mental]

Thank you...pensive...I am not despondent, but I'm not happy...I shall never take a step backwards...for the blue bird of happiness waves its wings at me. Cheers, B

[papayahed]

That stinks, sorry to hear it B.

[livelaughlove]

I'm so sorry to hear that. Cancer is nasty, nasty. Whenever I'm upset I drown myself in music - I don't know if it would help you but it's worth a try.

[B-Mental]

Papaya, we can still get together this week, and I just hope those doctors are right...she had radiation put into her body...thursday. I work with radiation, and I really want to believe they know what they are doing, but...Doctors killed my grandfather at 40 something by putting Mercury in his body....yes the deadly lethal Hg. (Mercury, liquid).

Thanks for the comment LLL. Been doing that...but even the bluest blues or the hippest swing aren't gonna just make this go away...maybe a good dance?

[Anza]

*Tearfully throws arms around B* That's absolutely horrible. You know were all here. You can totally PM me if you need a shoulder to cry on. You're in my prayers, and I'll be keeping up with your blog/ thread etc.

~Anza

[B-Mental]

Thanx Anza...I'm ok...for now...might take U up on that offer though. I am trying to just let this soak in...but it makes my head and heart numb........ . .

[Dori]

You have my sympathy, B. This reminds me of the movie A Walk to Remember, so I can somewhat see what you're going through (even though that's just a movie).

[andave_ya]

Ouch, B, I'm really really sorry.

[vheissu]

I don't know what to say....except that you have my sympathy too, B. :(
There are moments when you think life is very, very cruel and this is probably one of them.

[SleepyWitch]

wow, that's tough, B :( hugs

[Pensive]

You have my sympathy, B. This reminds me of the movie A Walk to Remember, so I can somewhat see what you're going through (even though that's just a movie).

Yes, me too, and it was a real tear-jerker (I liked the book even more than the movie though there was not much difference!)

[B-Mental]

Thanks Gang...Cheers, B

[B-Mental]

I guess Renae has run away, and I can't blame her. She doesn't reply to my phone calls. I am now seeing Suzie with cerebal palsy. She is kind considerate, an answer to prayers of all sorts. I am exhausted by the middle of the day and require naps to sleep. I have to pick her up and help her do a lot of things, but as good as it is...I am still lacking. I pray at a grave for Rachel Mourning. It is a pretty place, called the tomb of lost innocents. Anyways, I usually go to the park on the way there to play with the birds, or take in a lightning round of frisbee golf. 5 holes from 3 different starting points. I picked up a crucifix for my daughter while I was there. Its called The Medal of St. Benedict. Read the following link to learn about St. Benedict. He was a monastic leader much akin to St. Valentine or St. Patrick. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/St._Benedict
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The photo is of one of the sunrises in North Slope Alaska near Kuparuk from last April. Its very pretty. The fog shining down on the fog and housing. Oh yeah, the Packers didn't win, the Patriots didn't win, the Giants won....I guess B-mental can rock the cowbell for all of that! Cheerio, B