Countless Are My Friends Yet I Am Alone

[Pendragon]

Countless Are My Friends Yet I Am Alone

I couldn’t even begin to list the names of those who touch my heart.
And it was once prophesied my voice would reach the world, I could not see how then.
But in many lands and many languages my poems hang upon the walls.
I get PM’s and well-wishes and requests almost daily from many foreign lands.
I am friend to those who have other religions and to those with none at all.
I know people in Canada, Britain, France, Spain, Germany, Estonia, Russia, The Philippines,
Indonesia, China, Pakistan, India, Mexico, Morocco, UAE, Israel, Nepal, Czech Republic,
All over the USA, and in places I never heard the names of before. All are friends.
I can get on line and find someone to talk to live with through Instant Messenger,
And many send me e-mails on regular occasions to cheer this old man up a little.
But I have not one friend I can set down and have a cup of Earl Grey with face to face.
So as countless as my friends are, I am the Cougar that walks the path alone.
And even a Cougar gets lonely after nearly fourteen years…
Small wonder that cats play with their prey—not cruel, exactly—just lonely…

Pendragon
©1/15/08

[motherhubbard]

I'm sorry you are feeling lonely, Pen. I was thinking of you this morning. This was on the news- http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=17912796 and I wanted to call you up so you could listen too. Can we ever be alone when we are so full of each other? Or do we just feel a little more empty sometimes? I'm going to go heat some water and drink to you.

[PrinceMyshkin]

This is as if written with your heart's blood, my friend. I don't know whether I have felt this as keenly as you have but I have certainly felt a measure of it. Much as I treasure the exchanges here and via email or phone with others, a day without a living smile - even that of a stranger I might pass by in the street - feels like a day without food for my soul.

If I were within steeping distance of you I would surely join you for a cup of that Earl Grey.

[Sweets America]

I know some parts of loneliness too. I mostly like it even if sometimes it aches. It is sad when our friends are miles away.
Hope you will be feeling better soon, Pen. :)

[Pensive]

With your wonderful sonnets and poems, you should never feel lonely! :)

[Pendragon]

I'm sorry you are feeling lonely, Pen. I was thinking of you this morning. This was on the news- http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=17912796 and I wanted to call you up so you could listen too. Can we ever be alone when we are so full of each other? Or do we just feel a little more empty sometimes? I'm going to go heat some water and drink to you.Thanks for the article. Yes, that was the pulps and you noted the name Dashiell Hammett. That's where he got his start with many other authors. I still have six Spider pulps from Christmas to read!

Pen


This is as if written with your heart's blood, my friend. I don't know whether I have felt this as keenly as you have but I have certainly felt a measure of it. Much as I treasure the exchanges here and via email or phone with others, a day without a living smile - even that of a stranger I might pass by in the street - feels like a day without food for my soul.

If I were within steeping distance of you I would surely join you for a cup of that Earl Grey.And I would enjoy having that cup with you, Jer. And talk of poems and agony of the heart and the necessity of keeping the past in rememberance so that people do not become complacent about things that should never have happened.

Shalom, brother!


I know some parts of loneliness too. I mostly like it even if sometimes it aches. It is sad when our friends are miles away.
Hope you will be feeling better soon, Pen. :)Ah my dear, you always are a comfort! My friends are miles aways because those I called friend threw me away rather than try to educate themselves about how Bi-Polar illness works, and didn't give me time to recover from a complete emotion and physical breakdown which took years. By then it was oh, God, don't let him pass out, or act weird around us! Now my medicine controls me well, and I am normal usually and when I'm not, I know what's gonna happen and get somewhere for help! But they don't see because they are willful blind.

Thanks Sweets.

Pen


With your wonderful sonnets and poems, you should never feel lonely! :)
Well Pensy, I do keep my guitar right here beside me all the time. I guess maybe I need to start sending stuff for publication again. I could get a book published by a company I know, but they did a friend's book and in mass production there were major problems. Besides it would cost me a lot. Sorry I haven't caught you on chat, my computer is messed up and my chat and my using the computer for most things are on different browsers. Miss talking to you.

Pen.

[kiz_paws]

I know of a poet
who with mere words
moves hearts
from all walks of life

sad that one as
loveable as he
should sit at his screen
and feel lonely

Pen your poetry has always been an inspiration to all who have the privilege to read it .. .I know that I speak for everyone. And though we cannot materialize at your kitchen table, I want everyone to silently raise their coffee cup (me) or tea cup, or whatever it is that makes your morning bright -- to our beloved Pen.

To you!

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[Pendragon]

Aw, Kizzo, what would I do without your encouragement. Bless you.((hugs)) ;)

[ShadowID]

Loneliness
is a human emotion.
The less human;
the less lonely.

If I were the Devil himself,
I’d offer you that chance.
But as far as Devils go
I am not worthy, yet.

[Pendragon]

And you can't make a devil when you act like an angel, Mon ami. ;)

[ShadowID]

And you can't make a devil when you act like an angel, Mon ami. ;)

Ah, but Satan, himself, is an Angel.

And Angels make the best Devils, unfortunately.

The most graceful angel of all, the Devil, would gladly remove your pain.
So perhaps the question you should ask isn't "Why am I alone?"

but should be, "Do I want to hold my humanity?"

I suppose that question is easier to answer :thumbs_up

[totyfroty]

Oh, Pen, I know how hard it is to be alone.

The poem is amazing and is full of emotion. It is hard to have friends who are miles away but I think it is better than having none. I did not have any friends for along time,out of shyness that was interpreted as pride, but when the right time come I found an amazing friend who is always for me no matter what. And during this loneliness my far away friends were the greatest comfort for me and in a way, they still are.

I wish you the same dear Pen.

Have a nice day

[Sweets America]

Oh, Pen, I know how hard it is to be alone.

The poem is amazing and is full of emotion. It is hard to have friends who are miles away but I think it is better than having none. I did not have any friends for along time,out of shyness that was interpreted as pride, but when the right time come I found an amazing friend who is always for me no matter what. And during this loneliness my far away friends were the greatest comfort for me and in a way, they still are.

I wish you the same dear Pen.

Have a nice day

Wow, that sounds so much like me!

[Niamh]

Awe Pen that was a touching poem.
http://i227.photobucket.com/albums/dd59/vwtommy/hug.gif

[ampoule]

What little I can glean from the poetry and profiles on here, I think many of us depend on our cyber friends. You are clearly a friend to many and I could tell that immediately when I first came to this site and began reading your comments to poets young and old. To have a friend you must be a friend and you show that so well. I think it is easier for women to have friends but most often my book is my friend. I can stop most anywhere for a cup of tea or a meal and it can entertain me or sit quietly by while I contemplate my......no! not my navel.....har har har. Believe me, no one is going to look at my navel in the middle of Baker's Square. ;) Seriously Pen, I understand what you are saying. I hope you don't mind my silliness. Your poem speaks for many.

[Pendragon]

Oh, Pen, I know how hard it is to be alone.

The poem is amazing and is full of emotion. It is hard to have friends who are miles away but I think it is better than having none. I did not have any friends for along time,out of shyness that was interpreted as pride, but when the right time come I found an amazing friend who is always for me no matter what. And during this loneliness my far away friends were the greatest comfort for me and in a way, they still are.

I wish you the same dear Pen.

Have a nice dayI cannot imagine your shyness being interperted as pride, Toty, but then jealously of others allows them to turn a pretty girl's shyness into that I suppose. That I have so many friends I suppose is the greatest sign that I am myself friendly. Thank you for the uplift!

Pen.

[Pendragon]

Awe Pen that was a touching poem.
http://i227.photobucket.com/albums/dd59/vwtommy/hug.gifThat's a big hug! But what brings a tear to my eye is I know there is a bigger heart behind it! Bless you, Niamh!

Pen. ;)

[Pendragon]

What little I can glean from the poetry and profiles on here, I think many of us depend on our cyber friends. You are clearly a friend to many and I could tell that immediately when I first came to this site and began reading your comments to poets young and old. To have a friend you must be a friend and you show that so well. I think it is easier for women to have friends but most often my book is my friend. I can stop most anywhere for a cup of tea or a meal and it can entertain me or sit quietly by while I contemplate my......no! not my navel.....har har har. Believe me, no one is going to look at my navel in the middle of Baker's Square. ;) Seriously Pen, I understand what you are saying. I hope you don't mind my silliness. Your poem speaks for many.Of course, Amp! Silliness helps many of us get through the day! I am a man and a book is my best friend as well. But they don't talk or drink tea with me... I'm cheering up, Amp! I promise! :) ;) :p Thanks for being a good friend! :)

[amuse]

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Hoping this helps to lighten your heart, and that the scent of bergamot wafts from my tea kettle to you. We can, of course, choose to forego reading the paper accompanying! Unless, perhaps, people from here have contributed. :)

So sorry you're feeling lonely.

Much love,
amuse.

[Pendragon]

I may assume you will be drinking the other half-cup with me then? Who needs a paper? Over cups (or half-cups) of tea, conversation!

Love ya right back! ;)

Dale

[firefangled]

This is a sad poem, Pen, but as you can see from the response, you are certainly in the minds and hearts of many. Please add mine to the list.

[Pendragon]

I centainly will. Though I don't think I needed to, Fire. You've been a friend and a good one!

(hug)

Pen

[NikolaiI]

Even if we're far apart, we're still connected, old friend.