What have I become?

[dibyendra]

Oh yes my friend ! I am insane.
But to whom shall I blame ?
I don't know what's wrong
and what's right.
I better staple my mouth shut
as I don't have any rights.
I have become too weak that I can't fight.

Don't be afraid, as I won't blame,
neither this world, neither you.

Too much tears dried my eyes
and transformed my heart to a stone.
Don't shed no tears my friend
for what I have become.
Just give me kiss before I go,
maybe tomorrow I'll be gone !

[dibyendra]

Alone

Oh what have I become ?
In this great big world,
how can I can be so alone ?
I've never felt like this before.
So alone....
Just like sea without a shore,
sky without stars,
and tree without birds,
and a dog without a bone.
My soul is all alone,
it sings a different song.
Oh! what have I become?

Nothing seems right,
everything seems wrong.
Oh, what's going on?

But I don't want to bang my head on the wall in anger,
don't want to hurt myself and bleed in depression,
and don't want to give myself a suffering being depressed.
This world will definitely call me insane if I do so.
This won't be a good news
for myself, doctor, family, and friends.

[blp]

Hang in there, dib. Things can get better as well as worse.

Eventually you might even get some comments on the poems. ;)

Who's made you feel like this about yourself? How do you know they're right?

Actually, my prescription would be to try some language games. maybe toss a bunch of words into a bag and pull them out at random. Have some fun with language rather than just digging a little hole for yourself. Set the words free and they might show you something more interesting.

[dibyendra]

Hang in there, dib. Things can get better as well as worse.

Eventually you might even get some comments on the poems. ;)

Who's made you feel like this about yourself? How do you know they're right?

Actually, my prescription would be to try some language games. maybe toss a bunch of words into a bag and pull them out at random. Have some fun with language rather than just digging a little hole for yourself. Set the words free and they might show you something more interesting.

Thank you so much blp for your idea and suggestion. It would be great if you could suggest me regarding the things I have written. Is that really poor or should I need any changes ?

Yes, probably I might be lacking English words as I am not a native English speaker but still trying my best everyday to learn.