NikolaiI
09-17-2007, 01:18 PM
These are all poems I wrote months ago.
Even if you said thank you,
I would not do it again.
What's a wish? What's a wonder?
Endless night stretches before me.
I lay one weary arm on another,
And rest my head and weep.
Enlighten me.
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this eidolon taught me conversation
pure, rare energy,
what a divine light!
veins filled with love,
my eyes closed, the simplest of images,
all in my imagination.
running through my mind rhythm,
playing on the eastern rims,
all things filled with love-
this letter, filled with love,
elan, this taste,
what have I to tell myself?-
analytical power- pure thought-
raw motion, and an eidolon-
this eidolon named night.
charged emotion, thought,
ecstacy, this eidolon-
mid range, joyous.
what have I to tell myself?-
laughing, joyous, old men,
this is our hero of the story:
and an eidolon, named night,
came to my room and taught me conversion.
taught me illumination, diversion,
taught me conversation
and fanatacism.
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here, they have gods, goals, that they keep,
let them keep them,
and let them keep their sorrows.
i have been losing my will,
for many years giving it away,
as i would get involved with cynics and their business.
though i have now found salvation,
as one who has been illumn'd,
or seen the light;
now i am only spirit, subjected to spirit,
to all others objective-
let them keep their gods, it is not loatheful;
such things are not of substance to me.
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how, in a million different ways, i feel your presence,
waiting to get free!
release you,
and take me with you,
scout ahead the trees,
spirit let the wind take you.
run along the forest fence,
along the forest's side.
and to my side a big, yellow field;
sky blue high above, and clouds white;
i run, in the wind. this is my natural state,
and how quick i am!
it's misty blue now, god has drenched the world
a few days previously,
and this is our reminder-
of his power
of life
this is god and life.
this is it; though i cannot know where i will go,
all things will be spirit,
and i will be guided by the spirit,
in action,
my life a continuity of spirit and action,
i surrender to life.
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Childish- It was childish!
A childish delight- bestowed on me in the night,
By an eidolon, name day-
An eidolon- perfect!
A mysterious force of nature,
That, with one word dipped into my soul,
Touched upon my deepest being,
All my darkness viewed,
Illumn'd, restored,
And helped me to my feet.
Even if you said thank you,
I would not do it again.
What's a wish? What's a wonder?
Endless night stretches before me.
I lay one weary arm on another,
And rest my head and weep.
Enlighten me.
--------------------------------
this eidolon taught me conversation
pure, rare energy,
what a divine light!
veins filled with love,
my eyes closed, the simplest of images,
all in my imagination.
running through my mind rhythm,
playing on the eastern rims,
all things filled with love-
this letter, filled with love,
elan, this taste,
what have I to tell myself?-
analytical power- pure thought-
raw motion, and an eidolon-
this eidolon named night.
charged emotion, thought,
ecstacy, this eidolon-
mid range, joyous.
what have I to tell myself?-
laughing, joyous, old men,
this is our hero of the story:
and an eidolon, named night,
came to my room and taught me conversion.
taught me illumination, diversion,
taught me conversation
and fanatacism.
--------------------------------
here, they have gods, goals, that they keep,
let them keep them,
and let them keep their sorrows.
i have been losing my will,
for many years giving it away,
as i would get involved with cynics and their business.
though i have now found salvation,
as one who has been illumn'd,
or seen the light;
now i am only spirit, subjected to spirit,
to all others objective-
let them keep their gods, it is not loatheful;
such things are not of substance to me.
--------------------------------
how, in a million different ways, i feel your presence,
waiting to get free!
release you,
and take me with you,
scout ahead the trees,
spirit let the wind take you.
run along the forest fence,
along the forest's side.
and to my side a big, yellow field;
sky blue high above, and clouds white;
i run, in the wind. this is my natural state,
and how quick i am!
it's misty blue now, god has drenched the world
a few days previously,
and this is our reminder-
of his power
of life
this is god and life.
this is it; though i cannot know where i will go,
all things will be spirit,
and i will be guided by the spirit,
in action,
my life a continuity of spirit and action,
i surrender to life.
--------------------------------
Childish- It was childish!
A childish delight- bestowed on me in the night,
By an eidolon, name day-
An eidolon- perfect!
A mysterious force of nature,
That, with one word dipped into my soul,
Touched upon my deepest being,
All my darkness viewed,
Illumn'd, restored,
And helped me to my feet.