When Reality Hit Me

[SmilesAF]

Every now and then
a feeling of sorrow
washes over me
and floods me from within.
My heart drowning
in tears without end.

A conspired thought,
in fact a marvel of nature,
a disease so perpetually rare
that it had to strike
the one for whom I really care,
and he was trapped, caught…

The doctors said
“He’s been ill
perhaps twenty years!”
And all the while
he ignored the signs
until his life couldn’t bare it and fled.

Three years have passed soon,
and still it seems unreal,
this treasured person
so strong and so ill.
Can’t believe he’s not here
until I again see this empty room.

In my heart
he is a hero,
and the worlds tears
couldn’t morn his loss.
In short bursts of reality,
He clenches my heart, hard.

Days may pass without
a single thought,
and then some days
it’s really near.
But yet the reality
Of the matter has to catch me…
…again

He passed away February 22, 2002

[amuse]

SmilesAF, i hope he got the chance to read this someway/how. or know you wrote this for him.
and that he knows how much he means to you.
i wonder if you've read Helga's poem at http://www.online-literature.com/forums/showthread.php?t=2492&page=3&pp=15 ?

[SmilesAF]

That was quite an impressive peace, i can see the simmilarity, but this is a little different. This person was my grandfather, he died when i was 13, and we were very close.

[amuse]

i'm sorry...
it's a beautiful piece.
this captures your love beautifully, is wonderful:

In my heart
he is a hero,
and the worlds tears
couldn’t morn his loss.

[SmilesAF]

Thank you, i appreciate it.

[Suetang]

I could relate so very well to your words, especially since I lost my beloved father. I hope your writing brings you some comfort as it does for me.

Take care.........Sue