My heart's absolute surrender . . .

[GimmyDiamond]

My heart's absolute surrender
Was finding me in you
This ever-seeking, all-consuming
ache within me fulfilled
And with the saddest rapture
love blossoms in my breast
This phantom that you are,
breeding madness in my mind
Untouchable . . . you touch me
And I weep so bittersweet
Just a whisper . . .
. . . My heart is gone

[GimmyDiamond]

I hate you
I wish I could hate you
The way you smile
Drives me . . .
Up the fricking wall
Why won't you leave
How did you know
I would want you more to stay
Why won't you go
I hate it when you smile at me that way
Damn you and your stupid laugh
and stupid jokes and how you make me laugh
When I would rather cry or walk away
why do you make me want to stay
And further more
You just should know
I'm working on it now
I'm finally leaving
I don't need you
But I thought I should leave before you know
You might change my mind so
I'm mailing this to Arkansas
My sis will send it back once
I'm safe and far away
My heart won't make a sound
Even if I have to leave it there with you
Too bad you never knew or cared
I was in love with you . . .