Hey Everyone.

[Pendragon]

As some of you know, and the rest will know now, I suffer from bi-polar, depression, and other complications. Right now I am totally stressed-out and will be visiting the forum only sporadically. I have had two medicine changes in the past week. Just pray for me, OK? Any who may wish can e-mail me at [email protected] Be sure and mention your forum name in the title box, as I have a very strict filter on my e-mail and may miss your letter otherwise. I will still be here to write sonnets and check on Liz and others pretty much daily, but I cannot enjoy it as I did, too much stress. Ah, the intricacy of the human mind!

Pen

[optimisticnad]

wow. i mean sorry. i mean wow as in i didnt know that. you seem perfectly fine to me. too fine in fact. but thanks for letting us know, im sure u will be missed...everyeones leaving! noooo

[Riesa]

take care of yourself, Pen. You are in my thoughts.

[miss tenderness]

take care,Pen. We'll truly miss ur madness and sweetness around:(

[RobinHood3000]

Aye, brother -- may hardship pass and wellness return like the swiftness of the wind you put in our sails.

[AimusSage]

Pen, dragon, do come back soon! It's not the same without you.

'Yes it is' says the annoying donkeyheaded bastard. After which we all proceed to hit him over the head, because he is a big fat liar.

Come back Pen. Really, not kidding, you're a fun guy. :nod:

[mir]

oh, Pen, i didn't even know . . . get better really soon, okay? We'll all really miss you.

[Virgil]

Oh get better soon Pen.

[grace86]

Pen I didn't know! Well you have my prayers. I hope you definitely feel better soon. Might send you an email to check how you are doing.

[Idril]

Ah, Pen, I hope you'll be able to get balanced out quickly. My sister is also bi-polar so I know the effects of the disease fairly well and I know how medication changes and the every day stresses of life can really throw you for a loop and leave you feeling so vulnerable. My thoughts are with you.

[thevintagepiper]

Get well soon Pen!! We'll miss you. I'll be praying for sure.

[Stanislaw]

So Long my ghost friend...dinna hesitate to come back to our fair ship!

...and best o luck with yer ailment!

-Capt. Stan

[Scheherazade]

Hi Pen,

I hope you will feel better soon and be able to visit the Forum again. Meanwhile, take care of yourself! :)

[Madhuri]

Get well soon, Pen!!! We will miss you :nod:

Stick around in the forum if you like, I am sure you'll feel better by having a little chat. :)

[Pensive]

I hope that you will get well soon. Take good care!

[SleepyWitch]

big HUG from Sleepy. Get well soon, Pen. I'll drop you a mail

[Pendragon]

Thank all of you, my friends, for you thoughts, prayers, but most of all for your understanding. It is amazing how many people equate my illness with a raving lunitic. It has cost me a lot in friends, and even family. They see what they want to see, I suppose. I'm not gone, I will be here daily, but not for a long time like I was. I enjoy this forum and my friends.

[Logos]

No judgments here Pen ;) I have two relatives who are bipolar and pretty much everyone I've known has dealt with mental health issues at some point. Positive thoughts going your way :)

[Jay]

Take care, Pen, and come back soon! http://i11.photobucket.com/albums/a157/jayellen/smileys/dragon.gif

[Idril]

It has cost me a lot in friends, and even family. They see what they want to see, I suppose.

They see the illness, not the person because it takes less effort. :rolleyes: Luckily, we're all a little smarter than that. ;)

[Petrarch's Love]

You'll be in my thoughts and prayers, Pen. Someone very close to me suffered from a similar illness, so I know what incredible strength it takes to deal with, not only the illness itself but the stigma that some people ignorantly associate it with. I can tell you're a strong and courageous person from the powerful warmth, kindness and humor you share with us here in your stories and sonnets and conversations. So hang in there, and get back to us as soon as you can. :)

[Nightshade]

Thinking good cheesecakey thoughts at you pen:nod:

[cuppajoe_9]

Take care of yourself, friend. Drink lots of tea. It probably won't help, but it's delicious.
It is amazing how many people equate my illness with a raving lunitic.See my signature. Man if that thing doesn't come in handy...

[subterranean]

Really going to miss you, Pen! Come back soon!


http://www.amazingballoons.co.uk/acatalog/betsy_get_well.jpg

[Pendragon]

A Song For My Friends

The poet tells a story in each line that he writes down upon the page.
The words that he may choose sometimes see odd,
But believe me when I say behind the madness lies a purpose anyway—
I have walked through darkness and through fire,
I have see the very cover ripped away to show the flames of hell itself.
What would I have ever done against these overwhelming odds—
If I would have had to face them all by myself…

You might not think of yourself in terms of what that you have accomplished in life.
You might take a look around you at your little world,
And then think you have done a single thing worthwhile!
Let me pause you for a moment to let you take a look this time through my eyes—
You might see the many times if you hadn’t been there—
If you hadn’t said a word of encouragement—
If your strong arm had not pulled me back from the edge of The Abyss—
Where would this old boy be tonight? Who would hear his cries?

Kipling spoke about that one man in a thousand others on the earth,
That would stick by you like a brother come what may.
But he said the Thousandth Man would go even to the very grave and more—
I think that I have been blessed enough to find some friends like that.
Maybe you don’t think that of yourself at all—
But every time I stumble in the darkness, someone is there to break the fall!
I just ask myself in humbleness and truth if I’m worth it after all…

Pendragon
© 10/22/2006

[Virgil]

Pen, I hope you're feeling better now.

[kathycf]

Dearest Pen:

As you know, I surely relate to some of what is ailing you. I hope you find your path becomes smoother and easier to travel and your burdens become lighter. You are of course, in my thoughts. Best wishes to you and come back soon.

K.

[subterranean]

A Song For My Friends

......
But every time I stumble in the darkness, someone is there to break the fall!
I just ask myself in humbleness and truth if I’m worth it after all…

Pendragon
© 10/22/2006

I really like these two last lines. I'd like to add them in my signature. Hope that's ok with you, Pen. Get well soon!

[Virgil]

Those are very nice lines. And Pen I tell you from my heart you are worth it. Yes you are. Your charm and good nature and wisdom is a pleasure to be around.

[OZEED]

I really like these two last lines. I'd like to add them in my signature. Hope that's ok with you, Pen. Get well soon!

I can so relate to those last two lines pen, I guess we all have a story uh.
bless ya man!

[mtpspur]

As I ramble thru this site usuallyto escape boredom/responsibilities/consequences of some of more infamous actions I have observed several posters that display true consideration, respect and EMPATHY for the others. I have a brother-in-law who claims to bi-polar but my wife has her doubts and I try to stay out of it.

Loss of friends and especially amongst family members is almost a given. It takes the special ones to hang in there. Treasure those friends/family members who in the words of my long-sufering wife "love you anyway".

I appreciate the fact that you intend to maintain some connections on a regular basis. I believe the first mistake most people take in a crisis is to cut off the positives in their lives (under the misapprehension they they have become a burden) and then fall deeper into the dark.

My worst times are when I dwell on my sins (numerous) and failings (more numerous) and ignore the blessings I still have--when in doubt it's been of great comfort to know that GOD IS STILL GOOD and STILL Loves me anyway (in Christ) of course.

I miss your omnipresence on this site already. RobonHood 3000 just doesn't get it that Hawkeye has it all over Green Arrow.

[Pendragon]

I really like these two last lines. I'd like to add them in my signature. Hope that's ok with you, Pen. Get well soon!You flatter me, Sub. Certainly, use the lines. You may be the first to ever quote me! :)

[RobinHood3000]

Robin simply likes a) a sense of humor, b) a non-obsession with leadership, and c) ZERO PURPLE on his archer heroes, is all.

My girlfriend's mother committed suicide from a low point due to her bi-polar condition. My girlfriend took it very hard -- her mother was one of her dearest heroes and closest friends. You have my sympathies, well-wishes, and (as always) kindest personal regards, brother.

[mtpspur]

Robin--much condolence on your girlfriend's irreplacable loss. Over the years I've been near 4 people who all tried it (and luckily failed--2 family mbrs) so I often have something to brood over. I believe you will be very patient and supportive of your friend and keep (gently) reminding her IT WAS NEVER HER FAULT----EVER! The people who do succedd usually do in a time of great unrest and no immediate support system nearby--often it is very sudden notice with little or no warning. Can range from a discovered $5 in a sock drawer to Dear John letter from girlfriend to imagined rejection. Trivial at first glance but under depression enormous to the tormented. All my best.