Another World Inside Me

[Ahmed-Adel]

Another World Inside Me
“There is another world inside me;
A world of contradictions,” said she.
“I feel I’m happy, I feel I’m glad;
In the next moment I become sad!
All my life is a sort of confusion;
I feel I am living in an allusion.
I don’t know whom I do love;
I think I will die like a weak dove.”
“Oh, why do you say so?” I said,
“You are alive, you are not dead!
Life is good; life is great;
Life is happiness; no need to hate.
We are living in peace, in peace indeed;
Our hopes are growing; our lands are freed.
So why be sad? Why be confused?”
She didn’t reply; my words were refused!

August, 18, 2006

[lily of valley]

When I read this poem for the second time, I felt there is no real addressee in front of you. Rather, I thought u are talking or let me say babbling to the woman inside you.
Whether this is the true interpretation of your poem or not, I do not know. But, I like it. I might right again soon……………

LILY






I'm nobody, who are you?
Are you nobody too?
There's a pair of us, don't tell!
They'd banish us, you know!

How dreary to be somebody! Emily.

[Ahmed-Adel]

Well, lily of valley,
First I must thank you for reading my poem. I appreciate that.
Now, believe me or not, I don't think I was talking to a woman inside me! I imagined a situation; this is accepted in poetry, isn't it?! I imagined the situation of confusion which is common among lots of young people nowadays, unfortunately of course. It was not a totally imagined situation; some of the feelings and the dialogue are realistic, i.e. can occur in real life.
Actually, yours can be a very good interpretation; really it can be!
Anyway, looking for your reply :).
Thanks...

[lily of valley]

Hey Adel,
I think u know a text that is open to many interpretations is a good text. Exploding the signs of a text may result in many significations. If we are to consider my interpretation, addressing the woman inside u has to do with the very human psyche, i.e. it is REAL. This is first.
Second, u said "I imagined the situation of confusion which is common among lots of young people nowadays, unfortunately of course."
I do not know why u are saying unfortunately. Today I started reading the Marriage of Heaven and Hell by Blake. William Blake says, "Without contraries there is no progression." Similarly, in your poem u mentioned "a world of contradictions"," a sort of confusion"… all this is essential to human existence. According to Blake,"The tension of coexistent oppositions" must be kept and the attempt to reconcile these oppositions destroys existence. In this context that I am using to explain your poem, I will refuse like your woman describing the human situation as unfortunate:
"She didn’t reply; my words were refused!"
Tell me what do u think?
By the way, I need to tell u that I graduated from English literature department this year. I love literature so much.



I felt a funeral in my brain,
And mourners, to and fro,
Kept treading till it seemed
That sense was breaking through.

[Ahmed-Adel]

Hello again Lily of Valley,
First, I apologise for replying late!
Now, your reply was excellent; I liked it very much.
Blake's explanation/opinion is great: "Without contraries there is no progression." Yet, what I meant by "unfortunately" was that it sometimes deprives a person the chance to decide or know what to do. I will give you an example: I want to go right, and at the same time left; then I will either go straightforward or will not walk at all; right?!
I am happy to see your interpretation, for "a text that is open to many interpretations is a good text." :thumbs_up
I must tell you that I am a student of English Literature here in Egypt, in the Faculty of Arts. Where did you graduate from?!
I will continue this discussion later God Willing. I like those controversies best.
By the way, those lines I have read before and admired so much.


I felt a funeral in my brain,
And mourners, to and fro,
Kept treading till it seemed
That sense was breaking through.
See you...

[lily of valley]

Hi Adel,
I have to tell u that u encouraged me to introduce my personal poetry in this forum for the first time.
What makes me feel sorry is that it is only ME who tried to say sth about your poem.
As u know this forum has great brains. I feel sad for they did not try to say sth.
Second, what I am about to say will make u feel really surprised. I am ARAB like u, big boy. I have been asked here to say where I am from , but I've never said where I am from. I only tell the forum members that I am a Middle East woman. I do not know. It seems they like to know more about who I am. I know one thing: the world is biased. Don't u think that members` participation will be lesser to us when we say where we are from ?? Please tell me!
I am a naughty girl coz I will tell u where I am from in my NEXT thread in which I will present my personal poem so that u will read and interpret my poem…ha ha ha!!!
The title of my poem is A TALE OF A STATUE.




“There is another world inside me;
A world of contradictions,” said she.
“I feel I’m happy…. I am glad
In the next moment I become sad!
All my life is a sort of confusion;
I feel I am living in an allusion." Ahmad-Adel

[Ahmed-Adel]

Hi Lily,
Again, I terribly apologise for replying so late. I read your message some few minutes after you had written it, but I was busy and couldn't reply at that moment.
You know what? It was my first time also to publish a poem here; it was my first time. If I had found no replies, no reaction, I would have been disappointed. Thus, you are to be thanked for replying and giving me the chance to discuss what I have written.
As for the members not replying, I think they have their reasons. Perhaps they did not see it; perhaps they did not like it; I don't know.
You are an Arab? Then that's great. One may think that the members will be biased; maybe. I have found them very welcoming in the Forum here, so, not all of them will be biased. I want you to see this thread (it was my first time to open a thread -- all was replies) and tell me: did they attack me thus because I am an Egyptian?! The thread is entitled: Old English: And Wilt Thou? (http://www.online-literature.com/forums/showthread.php?t=18852) Sometimes I cannot deny that they may be biased; but, actually, one must be proud of his origin; proud of being an Arab.
Well, I have read your nice poem of course, and will reply you there...
By the way, when I finished reading your poem for the first time quickly, I admired the poetry lines at the end of your message and said, "Oh, what a nice poem. Who is that poet?!" :lol:

[pigeonordove]

:) I have just read your poem and found it the way life is for some people, today. The neat thing about it is to understand, that it is a reality on a different level of communication. The level where God is in attendence with us and hears everyone's tears, joys and need for peaceful co-existence.

Being a devoted God worshipping Christian, myself, Jesus helps sort 'out' that "confusion" you speak of, to give us our "peace of mind" so we can live rightfully for God sake, and peacefully co-exist with others in this world. I pray that others can achieve the freedom, peace, joy and happiness that God intended for all of us to have with one another. It can not work without each one giving it to the other, though. Have a happy day!

[Ahmed-Adel]

Well pigeonordove,
I appreciate your words very much. I liked the way you expressed your opinion. Indeed, what I wrote is "the way life is for some people, today."
I must say that when a person is straightforward, always near Allah (God), he will be, of course, less liable to that confusion we spoke about. In fact, all of us sometimes feel a state of confusion. C'est la vie! Being a religious person helps you to be more decisive and calm. I am a Muslim, and our religion helps us to know our aim in life and the path we should follow. This does not contradict with the fact that "confusion" occurs. It is not necessary a confusion about why I am here in life or so; no, my main idea was the confusion or contradiction of emotions. I am sure you will agree with me that our emotions seem too contradictory and confused sometimes, right?! By the way, your nickname itself seems also a "confusing" choice: pigeon OR dove?! :D :lol: I am joking :).
I pray with you for all people to have their freedom and peace of mind. I pray for all young people not to have those contradictory emotions... Amen!