Mother

[Truth Untold]

Originally written the day before my mams wedding pretty much sums up my feelings towards her then adn now. more of a vent than a poem but feel free to R&R

Mother

Always mother, never mam
Always falling for the wrong man
Sorrow, neglect seemed my fate
Now you're trying, too little too late

Now you're trying to make a life
You're trying to play a part
To play the true and loving wife
With your decietful blackened heart

Now you want me to come to you
You want me to be true
You want me to just forget
I'll forget, I'll bear your debt

Debt of pain and of hurt
You told me was my just dessert
You broke me down, you left me there
Cold adn hard without a care

I want to forget I'm bound by blood
But now I'm grown, a flower in bud
Never wanted never planned
Bastard child, eternal brand

I used to wonder what I'd done
Did I do something bad?
This life of mine that you begun
Is this the life I'm meant to have?

'Gran, why does mummy hate me?'
The tender soft reply
'She loves you really angel'
To protect me, she even lied

Lied to me whom she loved
And cared for as her own
I was safe and beloved
Yet I was still alone

They defended you against me
Even when I hurt inside
Nothing more incensed me
Than the fact you could make me cry

I used to think it could happen
The fairytale come true
We could be a family again
And love each other anew

But I can't feel the pain anymore
My strenthened heart, hard to the core
I feel no emotion, no pain, no love
This daughter you lost, free as a dove

Yes you lost me years ago
I can leave now, I can grow
I am free, I can fly, I can soaor
My past can stay a closed locked door

And so I'll play my part
I'll smile and sing along
You'll never guess that in my heart
I know all of it is wrong

I don't owe you anything
I ask nothing of you
And you think that with this ring
You can make it all less true

It's not enough and you must know
I'm strong enough by now
I don't need you to help me grow
I don't have to tell you how

You stand there all defensive
Excuses, I don't care
Am I that offensive?
Not even worth a prayer?

And so you sit, now in joy
Singing your new duet
Like a child with a brand new toy
I do not forgive
I do not forget

[mir]

that's spectacular, Truth untold . . . it's a really good poem, really sad . . . you could shorten a few lines, but otherwise, it really gets your feelings across . . .

[Mililalil XXIV]

That is in deed a great poem - and it reminds me all too much of a loved one of mine. I hope a new and unexpected poem brings a new day.

[Shakira]

Absolutely fantastic !!!!!!!!!! A great piece filled with agony, hurt & melancholy.

[Truth Untold]

thanks all!

[Pensive]

Oh yeah, this is a very good poem, very sad and it is written very well.