Never Been Kissed

[Spring Blossom]

I wrote this just to get my feelings out, not to create great poetry... It's more of a diary entry. That's also why there's hardly any punctuation! Please don't expect too much!

NOTE: Before you ask i am a high school student


Never Been Kissed

I see my friends in couples
In the distance
While I stand alone
Never been kissed

I watch them cuddle
I see them kiss
While I am cold
Un-hugged
Un-kissed
Un-loved
Alone

I pretend not to care
I pretend I'm happy
But my heart silently shatters
When I see couples in each other's arms

Friends say I'm better off
Not having to worry about boyfriends
Then they happily walk hand in hand
With their own

Boys come and go for them
But I'm always the same
Always alone

They say
'Tis better to have loved and lost
But I know only on hearsay
Just like the touch of love
The joy of love
The hurt of love.

Just once I'd like to be noticed
But I'm not pretty enough to be noticed
Not thin enough to be noticed
Not good enough to be noticed

I see my friends in couples
In the distance
While I stand alone
Never been kissed

[radspanner]

your poem really moved me.

you reminded me of myself when i was your age,(now 52) i was the same at school.i had no real friends, we were very poor so i didnt get to wear the latest fashion.no one wanted to dance with me at the school dances. i was very lonely and miserable,... as you sound.

however over time things get better,i have friends now who i treasure,one in particular. i have a beautiful wife and 5 children and i am proud of all of them.
my advice to you would be...be yourself,be nice to everyone,become known for being a lovely person who hasnt got a bad bone in her body.

let your personality shine through and you will find that people will warm to you,and seek out your company.let the so called beautiful people get on with it,their looks will fade in time,while you will still shine,and be the lovely person that you are.

[Spring Blossom]

:) thanks i wont let it get me down too much. i wrote that after a particularly bad day when i felt REALLY bad. But ill just keep being myself and ill be fine.

thanks again! :)

[amanda_isabel]

spring blossom,

i can totally relate to your poem...

i kinda feel that way sometimes and especially so since one of my best friends is the campus crush and i'm like, blah compared to her.

i do try talking to my mom about it and all she says is, 'just wait. your not even 14 yet and that's what you're worrying about???' which is actually pretty annoying...

anyway, i liked the poem... :)

[mir]

buck up, spring blossom . . . i'm sure you'll find somebody; just show them your poetry and they won't be able to resist : ).

[Spring Blossom]

:D Thanks everyone for your support!

[Mililalil XXIV]

Great expression.
It is better to be surprised by something worthy of your soul than to just hold the empty form of what you see about you as the others do. While all their philandering may ruin their futures, yours has a better chance. What does one truly have just having anyone fill a generic role? Is it a person who is so great that even apart from being a boyfriend they enrich your heart, or is that role-filler merely an agent in providing you a hand to hold, a mouth to kiss, etc? That sounds empty, while you can dream of something better and be free to embrace a real person to which the other things are agents for two people connecting (at a much older age). I was sickened to see children doing what was not theirs by right as such when I was a teen. I still haven't kissed anyone at age ......, but when I have married, what passed things I stole at distant, past moments will not hold the weight of having the woman I am in Love with to share one life with to the end. (But I understand what is is like to feel below the standard generally preferred at school. However, now I wish various people didn't even consider me, as there could only be one I should want the attention of. Many that are considered beautiful in high school are never again seen as such from their twenties on, all through life, while many that are considered homely in high school look perfect as adults, and even seem to get better looking with age. Also, for the one beholding his perfect match, it is not her looks that set her apart from all else in his eyes, but it is seeing her in looking into her eyes that make her looks alone alive and special to him. Some see a light on in a window a beautiful sight in coming home at night. To someone, you will prove the most beautiful sight in all of creation, and that man will know he has come home.)

[Spring Blossom]

Ummmm.... I'm not sure if I understood all that, Mililalil XXIV... :blush:
But thanks anyway! :D

[smilingtearz]

:lol: he has a habit of "writing beautifully".. never mind :D

nice poem Spring Blossom...

and agreeing with Mililalil.. i'd say love is something that happens... with time... having a boyfriend just for the sake of having one is not a good idea... Wait for someone to really appreciate what you are...

[Regit]

Spring Blossom,

May I ask why you have never been kissed?

[Spring Blossom]

Well, to be honest, I've never had a boyfriend because
1. I've never really liked any of the boys around and
2. None of the boys around have really liked me
It's a mutual understanding.

[Truth Untold]

i loved this poem. again i relate. buck up! my ex was a real b*****d! who needs 'em?

but seriously i'm going away to uni and plan to find someone there, hopefully someone who does love me and not just say they do. hope springs eternal! listen to me and i'm 18! lol!

[shinigami]

Ooh.. I relate to this really well... My close friends all have either boyfriends or girlfriends.. sometimes I do feel singled out.. Especially because my crush has a girlfriend already and of course his girlfriend just happens to be another close friend so I can't hate her... Hmm... never been kissed? Well, that's a different matter -entirely.
I've been kissed already but hey... I mean.. in the school that I study, which I love and swear loyalty to, I'm the Love-Doctor.. and it seems that the whole world is against me.. that I don't have my special somebody... Sigh... sigh, sigh,sigh...

hehehe... Well.. I don't care much.. I'm great at handling depression and all other negative feelings... You really aren't bad then.. It doesn't matter if you're fat, lousy, stupid, poor or all other sh*t life throws in your face... Just wash the muck off and smile... Coz no matter what goes in your way.. If you want it enough.. You'll have it.. So.. I'm sure that you'll grow old, with a husband, 2 children, 4 grandchildren, living in a house with a choice of dog/cat... with at least one plant, 2 computers and 1 TV...

[bazarov]

I don't like poetry much, but this is beautiful...I also never had a girlfriend, my friends are telling me that it's because I read too much, and because of that I live in some parallel world...Don't worry. someone will come Into Your Own Little World:), you deserve it, everyone does...maybe me to...

[holdencaulfield]

i think one should celebrate the fact that he/she has never been kissed because once you are kissed your "never been kissed" status is forever gone( and the wonderful beauty of the phrase-"never been kissed"-is irrevocably lost).

[blondeatheart]

good point

still u can kiss lots of people and still say you've 'never been kissed' -
never REALLY been kissed - when everything around u blurs and disappears and there's just you and that person and ur simply happy

[Bysshe]

i think one should celebrate the fact that he/she has never been kissed because once you are kissed your "never been kissed" status is forever gone( and the wonderful beauty of the phrase-"never been kissed"-is irrevocably lost).

Ah, that's a nice way of looking at it. A good way to give hope to lovesick, boyfriendless teenage girls, anyway.

[Petrarch's Love]

I was a little late getting my first kiss (at least by the standards of my friends who teased me), but I would tell you not to worry, it will come, and you'll wonder why you were so worried about it all this time. Not to mention, dating isn't always as perfect as it looks from the outside (though believe me, even after you're kissed you may go through those periods when you feel left out looking at couples...but these too will pass). As it turned out I got my first kiss in Venice, Italy on a trip there with my grandmother. He was a Navy ensign, and a self described "Georgia gentleman," on shore leave who took me out for drinks in the Piazza San Marco after charming my grandmother into giving me a few unchaperoned hours. All I can say is that my friends who teased me for being unkissed for so long have been jealous ever since that I got my first kiss by the Grand Canal in Venice with an officer and a gentleman. ;) Good things come to those who wait.

[Virgil]

I was a little late getting my first kiss (at least by the standards of my friends who teased me), but I would tell you not to worry, it will come, and you'll wonder why you were so worried about it all this time. Not to mention, dating isn't always as perfect as it looks from the outside (though believe me, even after you're kissed you may go through those periods when you feel left out looking at couples...but these too will pass). As it turned out I got my first kiss in Venice, Italy on a trip there with my grandmother. He was a Navy ensign, and a self described "Georgia gentleman," on shore leave who took me out for drinks in the Piazza San Marco after charming my grandmother into giving me a few unchaperoned hours. All I can say is that my friends who teased me for being unkissed for so long have been jealous ever since that I got my first kiss by the Grand Canal in Venice with an officer and a gentleman. ;) Good things come to those who wait.
That is truly a great story Petrarch. I hope you have pictures. I have this image of you kissing this sailor in uniform by the canal during a sunset. Soooo romantic. And you can't take a boring picture in Venice; it's impossible.

[Petrarch's Love]

That is truly a great story Petrarch. I hope you have pictures. I have this image of you kissing this sailor in uniform by the canal during a sunset. Soooo romantic. And you can't take a boring picture in Venice; it's impossible.

Yep, it was even sunset time, and he looked great in his uniform. I've got lots of pics of venice, but alas none of my dashing sailor. Either I didn't have my camera with me when I was with him, or the kiss proved entirely too distracting. ;) Ah well, this way he can get better and better looking each time I tell the story, and no one can prove me wrong. :lol:

[mir]

good point

still u can kiss lots of people and still say you've 'never been kissed' -
never REALLY been kissed - when everything around u blurs and disappears and there's just you and that person and ur simply happy

so true . . . Spring Blossom, don't count it as anything if you've never been kissed; it only matters whether or not you really like the person who kisses you. i've had three or so boyfriends . . .but i never really liked any of them, and i felt so horrible when i had to tell them that . . . so like Petrarch said, good things come to those who wait; don't rush into it, just wait a while and never be afraid to take chances, and there's no doubt you'll find somebody great.

now to follow my own advice . . . *sigh*

[Spring Blossom]

i think one should celebrate the fact that he/she has never been kissed because once you are kissed your "never been kissed" status is forever gone( and the wonderful beauty of the phrase-"never been kissed"-is irrevocably lost).

You could be right, holdencaulfield. and bazarov, i know what you mean! I have a solid "weird" status at school, which doesnt help the whoole getting a boyfriend thing. Oh well. I think id rather be wierd :D

Shinigami, just remember that your not the only one out there without a boyfriend. (that thought usually makes me feel better)

btw does anyone know why the dancing banana smilie is one of the default ones? I mean... how often do people use it?!

[Petrarch's Love]

btw does anyone know why the dancing banana smilie is one of the default ones? I mean... how often do people use it?!

People around here go bananas on a regular basis. The dancing banana smile is one of the most vital and revered smilies on these forums. If you stay around here long you will see him coming up all the time, and in the most unexpected places. :banana: :banana: :banana: :banana: :banana:
The one I wonder about is the Santa smilie. Why is he in the default box? He's only used in December.

[RJbibliophil]

Spring Blossom, I liked your poem! I could tell it was from the heart, something you really meant. I'm home educated, and I'm often lonely when I go certain places, because all the other people my age know each other, kind of ignore me and I feel left out. I don't really worry about boys, (I would rather have friends).

I agree with holden, that not having been kissed is something you should hold on too. It's something you can save for your future (hopefully) husband, and then you don't have the knowledge that you kissed other girls' husbands. Anyway...

About the smilies, bananas are great! :banana: But I wonder: :ladysman: :alien: :santasmil :as-sleep: :crash: :brickwall:
When I first came, I didn't get the birthday one. :bday_2: but it gets used tons whenever someone important has a birthday.

[Spring Blossom]

Okay, you guys win... I guess the banana IS an important smiley! :lol:

So I guess I should honor it!

:banana: :banana: :banana: :banana: :banana: :banana: :banana:

Besides... It is quite cute :D

[RJbibliophil]

Isn't that the point?

:banana: :banana: :banana: :banana: :banana: :banana: :banana: :banana:

[thevintagepiper]

I like your poem, Spring Blossom--a lot. For me it's kind of the same way, but I'm really proud of my known status as the never-been-kissed, never-dater girl....It's something a lot of girls (or guys) now have, and I want so much to save my first kiss for my wedding kiss. I think that would make it so perfect and beautiful!
Still, there are times when I wish I was allowed to date, but it's my conviction that I shouldn't, not just my parents'. I would feel like I'd lost something important if I kissed anyone now. I've been homeschool my entire life but there are some guys I know (and, go figure I've liked all 5 of them at one point or another...I guess it's sad that I don't have more friends-that-are-boys...). ANYWAY...as people have been saying, I think that's the best position to be in! Besides, why prepare for divorce? To me, that's how I see dating-at least "recreational dating" in h/s or middle school. (I'll be doing courting, btw) Geting with someone and then leaving them, and doing it all over again. You get used to breaking emotional attachment.

[lit_lover]

I enjoyed reading your poem. I could really see your suffering through the words.... great imagery. I can relate though. Im in high school too, a senior. Iv'e never had a real steady boyfriend throughout my years in high school. I always thought i wasnt good enough for anyone, but then i just got over it really. So my advice is just hold on because even if you find a guy, that lust wont make you YOU. It wont make you happy.

[Kareem D.]

oh really I can't express what I feel when I read this poem Because I can't stop crying for 1 hour. This poem really moved me and make me feel how I am lonely and miserable.. Really good Poem!

[zanna]

I really appreciated this! Also in that club. :) It's a decent one, tho. There've been a few guys that I've liked, but never enough to say anything (shyness doesn't help). Now there's a particular one, but I don't LIKE him like him, per se. I'd be happy to be his "sister," or "the girl next door," or whatever. There's some tension, there, tho. We've had enough awkward moments to last a lifetime. :lol: I wouldn't change any of it, tho. I'm glad for all the funny, crazy memories I have, and hopefully we'll figure it out someday. Gotta love having someone to discuss books with, and siblings, and teach them something new. Hour-long phone conversations are great, too. :D The 'rents weren't too happy about that one; tyin' up the phone line. Thank goodness it's not long distance, tho. Ah, such is life. Keep on truckin', Spring Blossom. And maybe post other poems, if you've any. This one is very nice.