trust

[ominous]

i apologize to everyone here if i end up posting alot today. i'm under alot of stress and my mind has been a crazy mess and i feel very alone. i really don't have anyone to talk to so i decided to let it out here. maybe i might make some sense to what i'm thinking while i'm at it. who knows.



to you i run, to you i hide
and when you look at me i can't confide
words can't decribe all that is real
because i'm not the person that i feel

i took on alot of things
and in truth i didn't believe
it wasn't right to run and lie
to live in some fantastic high
the water behind the dam soars
and i can't hold back anymore

i walk alone held up in fate
waiting for the premise of escape
i have betrayed you and everyone
very against what i've become
a fear so thick i can't let go
but it's the truth that must be known

destroyed i am, an untimely loss
so much i've wasted at what cost
and when people see who i am
nobody will be left to give a damn
why do i try when nobody could understand
i'm just human, only a man
but the truth is better than a vision of doubt
a way of thinking i could do without

and as much as it has made a prisoner of me
i can finally let go and start to be free
when the time comes and i reveal what's to be shown
so much pain i will cause to the ones i have known
when everything settles and smoke clears away
i might still be alive to live another day

[Lautschrift]

this is how i feel, where you stipulate from
to be alone and feel alone
the notion of reflecting , a power so sane can be insanity, for the reason we do reflect, is of all kind
also i love how you implement the idea of being free for it also suggest that the price has to be payed dearly by yourself with compassion and thoughts of what you have done to others

i see how you bring yourself to open up, regardless