wondering

[kconnolly]

i was wondering
if a man were a man
as i am a man
and if he can wonder as to the nature.
I wish you worried more about me,
and wanted more from me
I always seem to create the lure
contemplate your coming
knowing it will happen,
if only for the wish
The wonder that it must be real,
For the idea that you care.
But he said one day,
But the day passed and i wait
The tangles that staind my wanting, and the hope
So now i only blow
the silk that splashes everywhere
wants only to be touched,
because it understands purpase
But a man without
wishes only to be touched and to hide
Your drive enough he understands
the shadow, the almost love
The drive of instinct and the code.