REMiNiSCENCE

[EpItApH]

Reminiscence



Wouldn’t it be nice if I were happy and gay?..

Wouldn’t it be nice if I had nice things to say?..


Would it be so bad, if I could greet each morning with a smile?
Would it be so sad, not to molder every mile?

What would it cost to accomplish peace, alas?
How can I escape this infinite morass?
This fate inflicted upon me by GOD, is of permanence?
How many more days will I die a new death, without ever getting a chance?


To the world outside this, is where I feel I should belong..
Where I can Live, Love, and Right all the wrong.


How much longer will my ears bleed till I go deaf from all the screaming?
Couldn’t you spare me; even when I’m dreaming??


I obey, I rebuke, yet repression always wins..
Followed by depression, leading to the sins.
If HELL did not exist I would end it all for good..
Suicide will take me there, otherwise I could.

Duplicitous comfort passed some days, yet gray were countless more..
Never-ending tears had turned to droughts many years before.
These slits of various depths help ease the pain; so bloody!..
Will I be driven to utter insanity; or am I there already??



For most of you these words, may seem too cliché..
Well, Excuse me for my REMINISCENCE till this very day.



Comments are appreciated! :D

[Dailen]

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[EpItApH]

Well no i do not just write about these dark stuff.. I have other genres in my scrap book... But I've chosen to post these two because i felt they were nicely written.. and the most recent poems done by mua...


I have another "R" word for you - Renunciation.

I scream in pain, each day the same
My agony blends with the mundane

I hold it tight, I know it well
I keep myself in a personal hell

I know, each day when I wake
and my feet hit the floor
I'll wish I were someone else
as I walk out that door

But, world outside is not as I wish
The world in my mind, is more my dish

So I Keep going day after day
Learning new ways, trying to play

The time will come, when I let it go
but the Renunciation, is a process thats slow.

So take deep breaths, but not to deep
and know that your pain, only you can keep.


*(don't laugh)This helped me
--Have you ventured into the mind of the Dark Elf?
Dont laugh?!! are you kidding... you know, most great writers underestimate themselves :D but yea it is good to be modest.. :)
Respect!..

[Dailen]

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