I often wonder at things we do in life and then to draw conclusions that life is simply a game in which we bargain and do nothing else.
I got born for my parents wanted to see me to leave landmarks on their lives, and I am just an extension of their personalities or my birth was basically desired to boost their egos and I am just an stretch of that to their understanding of me. They birthed me, reared up me and brought up me to my this stature enabling me to adapt to the circumstances I am in. They accustomed me to do things the way they wanted.
They walled me against my own extensions and pruned me and stop from branching out, for fear of getting encroached. They feared that I will encroach their ideals and they did not want of me all that things to happen at ant cost.
They sent me to school where they believe the teacher out there would indoctrinate me into a model and thinking that he will modulate me into certain patterns and I do not go beyond a borderline set for me.
I held them in reverence and their words scared.
Now I am not here and all I do are their own reflections, and in my writings you can read my parents and my Gurus.
Tell me where I exist in substance, and I am just a silhouette, not the object, just an outline not the content.
They,, my parents who birthed me, my Gurus, my societies gave me things thinking that they will get some something in return.
My parents wanted love in return and my societies codes of conducts, civilities, civil duties, submissions to authorizes and the like.
I was not permitted to carve out a way for myself and I was asked to walk the path tracked by them. I was not allowed to leave footmarks, landmarks and the like. I am coerced to follow them, their ideals, their dreams and decorate their own lives. I am a sheer nothing and to serve them I am birthed.
I am just an image, flickering and they want to fulfill through me their endless desires.
Just sit and think deeply and meditatively we are simply following tracks and not carving them and we do not think with our own minds and choose to borrow minds and ideas from others.
They customize us into their ways, and we lose personalities in this bargain, and never set ourselves in fight, and but in acquiescence in things they do or believe in.
These are my reflections on life and the personalities we are and you may cross across so many inconsistencies in the contents and styles. The objective here is simply mirror something I feel and nothing else.
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