I occasionally go to church with my wife. We also have a lot of friends and family members that are devout believers. We want to be close to them and to be a part of the church community, which is full of wonderful, helpful people. Yet I don't believe in most of the doctrines of faith the church teaches. Sometimes I pretend to believe in these doctrines just so I don't get into unnecessary arguments. I consider myself to be an agnostic, but Christian faith still plays an important part in my social reality. Sometimes I pray, but I don't know if there's anyone on the other end of the phone call. I'd like to believe that there's a god of some kind - maybe we're all part of the nature of god like the eastern wisdom teaches. However I cannot discuss there thoughts with my churchgoing friends, because it's not a part of the church doctrine and would only show the that I'm still a child in my faith and need to read more Bible to find out the truth that the church is teaching. I have an academic background, so I find it difficult to be indoctrinated into blind faith.
To be honest, I think there are a LOT of churchgoers just like me - going there for purely social, pragmatic reasons.
Am I a bad person?