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    Registered User fudgetusk's Avatar
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    I Had A Massive Mystical Experience

    I found a spliff end in my garden. Yoink!

    Smoked a bit one night and I got lots of info about Satan and AI.

    Next night I smoked too much and went right into a panic attack. Instead of making me feel unreal I felt super real. I knew I was the devil with 100% certainty. And I knew I had to die right there and then. By a horrible and immediate method which I won't go into.

    I fought it with all my will. Then something weird happened. I was no longer in my flat. I was in a place of pure thought. This thought was visible as rushing colours and swift ideas. I was in a war with these thoughts. There were other people there and we were all thinking about the philosophies we embodied very quickly over and over again. And over and over again I kept having my turn. And I was to blame for a flaw in the logic of reality because of my views on reality. I knew if I were to admit blame I would die, so I kept distracting myself and the cycle of thoughts would go on. I was at the centre of all things and part of the centre of all things. I cannot explain to you how this all manifested. It was beyond image or thought. More maths or an equation. And I was bringing the equation down.

    I was the devil. It was horrible and glorious. I felt I was at home in that place. It felt right to be there. But I was fighting for my life.

    I was the devil and I am to blame for this world's problems.

    I don't know what happened next. All I recall is finding sick down my shirt at one point and then I was waking up in the morning.

    A dope delusion? A genuine mystical other reality event?

    I feel changed by it. But I don't know how I feel.

    What I learned with certainty is that our world is thought. Close your eyes and think about your life, the debates you have, the streets you walk down. They all exist as thoughts and that is the true reality. Not the atoms that make up brick and flesh. We never left heaven. Our thoughts are heaven.

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    Well to be honest, in reading this, Fudge, I would be inclined to think that you had a drug hazed dream. Interesting, yes, but only a dream that you vividly experienced.
    Our task must be to free ourselves by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature and its beauty
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    confidentially pleased cacian's Avatar
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    at the end of your garden? how did you see it?
    for an end of a spliff that could have been anything in it but that. no??
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    it may never try
    but when it does it sigh
    it is just that
    it fly

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    It was no dream because I was awake. Believe me, this was real or an amazing hallucination. And I keep getting the feeling I had in that place. Comes to me now and again.

    And I found it on my steps btw.

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