The old man has to die in order for the new one to live. I encourage you to write your own life-gving suicide note of a person who has screwed-up but works to change his life for the better in this thread. (In case anyone gets confused this is not my suicide note)
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Dear Beth,
I'm sorry for the pain I caused you and the problems I put you and your mother in. I'm sorry for wasting away all our money and made us move to a cheap apartment in Dankers Street. I just want you to know that I am grateful for having a daughter and wife who care about me so much. Thank you for your letters and visits. Thank you for your patience even when I panicked and started screaming at you both. Thank you for forgiving me and still holding on to me as if I were still that father that you knew before the gambling, the casinos, the paranoia! I thank christ everyday for showing me enough mercy to have such a wonderful and beautiful family, one of which I am not worthy of due to my screw-ups. It's been four years now of five-year sentence. I'll be coming back soon baby. I'll get to see you go to prom. I'll be there when you go to college. If you and your mother will give me another chance I'll be there for you and never leave you again. Hours and hours of wasting money trying to hit the jackpot when all the time I already hit it with you guys. I'm ready to help us get back together and back into a home that's ours. I'm ready to come back and hug you and kiss you and tell you how much I love you. I promise you the stupid old man inside of me has died and I'm ready to show you and the world this new young man who plans to contribute to all who surround him. I know I'm going off like a deranged intellectual but the truth is I'm no longer counting the days that I have to endure vast amounts of pyschological torture. I'm counting the days where we will be back together and never separated again. Don't lose your patience. I'll be there baby girl.
Sincerely.
Jonathen Gates