Oddly enuf this came from a tussle of two dogs in The Dpk.
It is a rough draft and i know I should refine it more but time doesn't allow for that.
Just thought I would post and see what anyone has to to say.
We were twenty-one when we first met. She was so vibrant and full of flirt and sass that I immediate fell in love. She was everything I wanted in a woman; intelligent, witty, caring not to mention alive, and sexy.
We spent immeasurable hours talking and learning of each other’s inner self, star gazing, hiking and hand holding. We married and dreamt of having children so we could enrich lives. Meanwhile we spent time flying kites and raising a puppy; and smiles, laughter, bottomless hugs. The sex afterwards was indescribable; she raised me up to levels I didn't even know existed for a man! (no pun intended!!)
God I love her.
In our second year, she struggled to walk…her speech was slurred and I kept asking…what is happening to you?
The answer was her dreamy blue eyes would stare into mine and it made my heart ache.
Then about three years later, at her age of 25 she started to leave me…a slow, painful fade for me. I saw her vibrancy wither from her, no more walks and hand holding and our dog begging for her attention. Her mind and body no longer spoke to each other and each passing day became harder for me. She lost the use of her left side and shortly following a year late her sight.
She would thrash around trying to retain the use of her limbs and a tear would roll down her cheek and I could hear a very deep sigh from her over-kissed lips.
I know she hated giving up life; as she held it tight enuf to squeeze the power of the sun, the beams of the moon, the glow of the stars and the beauty of the earth…she saw it all through her blue eyes and fought to hold on.
I have come to realize how selfish I have become. But who can blame me? I had my soul mate in my arms and now have to watch her be washed away.
I think many would have left but I couldn’t. She was the light under my bushel when all was dark and I would never leave the one who gave such life to my heart and spirit ….I owed her my company and tenderness even thou she might not realize in her last days that I was there. She was still all I loved.
Well, a year crawled by and now she has passed onto a better life….sounds so clique
I still see her in my dreams…and she is dancing and teasing as she always did.
MS is a silent killer. I am at peace that I was there to help My Angel move forward into a new world.
My only wish is that I could move forward with her.
Kittypaws