The Thinnest Line
westbound on I-10
and crossing lanes,
take the next exit
and pull into
Burger King at 3am,
do another line
put in a Black Sabbath CD
lean the seat back
and grind my teeth,
looking through
a cracked windshield
up at Texas sky
thinking to myself
that even the stars
are dying,
time is dying,
and there's
nothing we can do
turn the key
in the ignition
and pull out slow,
take another hit,
telling myself,
That's it. I have to come down.
but a promise
is just another wish
and I never want
to stop driving,
merge back on
the interstate,
each mile going
by in seconds
pass an
18-wheeler
doing 90,
a white cross
on the side
of the road
reminding
me how it
all can end
slow down to 75
going into
Fort Stockton
and hold my breath
as a State Trooper
goes by with
his lights flashing
saying to myself,
He doesn't know.
How could he
possibly know?
wake up in
a cheap motel
outside El Paso,
and try to remember
what day it is
think of Jessica
and reach over,
it's almost like
she's there next
to me but she
said never agin
so **** her
and **** New Orleans,
I'd rather be in West Texas
cut a line
on the table
then walk outside
into that dry,
warm air
and it's like
I can see across
the horizon
enough money
to last a
couple months
at least
and something
pulling me
forward,
through all
of this pain
I know it's real
and nothing will
ever touch me again
walk to
the office
and pay
for 5 more nights,
gonna get off
the tweak
and come back down,
drink for a week
then head to Utah
to look for work
or maybe Colorado,
anyplace will do
and freedom
is a broken compass,
a road is willingness,
a road is a river of dreams