For whatever reason, I don't think it was up to me either. This whole notion that we get to pick who we believe in, may not be true either. I believe some are picked to believe and others are not. When someone is not picked to believe then it don't matter, they won't believe. I don't even try to convert someone to Christianity, cause most think I'm crazy to believe. They tell me I can say god bless you to someone to be polite, but if I mention anything but an Easter bunny for Easter, they'll call the insane asylum on me.