Lets see a little bit about me,
What is there in me that makes me want to just be,
I used to be driven by gaming and art,
Id sit there all day filled with content in my heart,
Then a girl walked into my life and began to fill me with strife,
I thought she was sent from above,
As beautiful to me as a flying dove,
But although birds fly they also choose to dive,
She brought me so low i couldn't feel alive,
I begged and pleaded asking what she needed,
Obviously i did something wrong logically that little voice i should have heeded,
It could have ended right there but it was to much for a weak kid to get away from my dove,
I looked in the mirror and asked myself is this the price of love?
I made a mistake that became my largest regret,
We stayed together and i knew we were internally beginning to lament,
Stuck together when we knew the truth,
That relationship should have ended when she knocked me out of my booth,
In no way am i not guilty Lord knows what was happening to my head,
Invited another girl into my bed,
That's when things got bad,
I lost everything i had,
Walked away as half a person,
Locked away in my own minds prison,
We've barely begun keep on reading and learn some more,
I treated every girl i met like a whore,
A quick fix for what i missed,
My heart was grabbed by Satans kiss,
Now things started to get worse,
I treated everyone around me like they were already dead to me, rolling away in a hearse,
Then i stumbled upon someone that truly brought peace into my heart and beyond that to the chaos of my mind,
For a while things were great nothing could get into my head to **** me from behind,
There's the beginning of my trouble,
i thought i was immune in my own bubble,
I got selfish thinking i had the world configured,
Nothing could touch me i had it all figured,
Its about to get sticky,
If you don't want to know,
Nows the time to go,
So focused on me,
i didn't realize i was like a blind man unable see,
That peace that was introduced to my life began to see my inner strife,
I dreamed of this girl being my wife,
But that kiss was still there waiting for me to tear,
I found a temporary supplement,
It always could make me grin ear to ear,
I hid my demons in that nice little tent my soul is how i paid their rent,
That one i saw that began to show me life was getting hurt by me,
Like a blind man i was unable to see,
When i was told it was time to stop,
I was to far gone my selfishness was on top,
So there she went away from me,
She knew what i would be,
After that i stuffed my life into that tent,
Forgot how i paid the rent,
My mind was in a constant haze even when i didn't blaze,
Somethin took over i looked at life lost in its maze,
Wound up alone trying to get someone to throw me a bone,
Satans kiss was already on my throne,
Now it gets sicker,
His stamp was on my forehead like a sticker,
Constant evil was flowing through my head,
Do you know what its like to lay alone while hearin a voice inside your head nestling in making its own bed?
I knew something was happening to me,
It was gaining control i didn't know what to be,
I remember people coming over,
Telling me they've never seen me sober,
It happened,
I cracked,
Their was more fighting in my head than Iraq,
It was never ending a constant battle,
I knew i was going to lose unless i went on the attack,
I fell back on my family they helped me get back in the saddle,
Some stupid runt psychiatrist said i was going to be crazy,
That moron made everything more hazy,
That's when i went to church,
My whole being began to lurch,
A sliver of God was shown to me through a complete stranger,
That guys faith is stronger than an army ranger,
All at once i burst out of the things that kept me bound,
A new faith has been found,
Now Im gettin to know myself again,
I don't consider myself second shelf,
Im worth more than all the worlds yen,
Each day is like a new experience and look at me now,
I see why i need to be humble and bow,
Im suddenly filled with new gifts,
The pen and my words flow through my rifts,
Im a whole new man with all new gifts.
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Originally Posted by Devin
