pulverize
she’s going to stay with mom
every daughter does
when they leave
their husbands
but then her mom...
mom died when she was
sixteen
he is ALL
she’s got
she checked into Hudson
an off Broadway boutique hotel
where its cocktail lounge floats
psychedelically on a lit glass floor
under stark white bedsheets
she felt around for him
he’s supposed to be here
he is not here
she can’t breathe
without him
so it became clear
crystal clear...
tomorrow
she will check out at noon
or when the meds wear off
whichever comes first
tomorrow
she will take the E train
go ten stops downtown
tomorrow
when he gets off work
she will be there
in the lobby
where they first met
in the elevator
going up 98 floors
tomorrow
she will walk into him
melt into him
but she did not know
there will be no train service
no lobby no elevator no building
no tomorrow
she will have
no body
she did not know that
when she falls into a deep sleep
on the night of September tenth
two thousand one