We went back for a re-check, as suggested; to see if the lump was any larger. After a palpitation of the affected area it was confirmed. Just to make sure, I took him outside to urinate then we checked again. Yes, the lump was still there, still could be felt on his kidney. Next step and X-ray. Kitty can you, will you be willing, to go with Mark and help X-ray him. He trusts you. The three of us weaved down the halls. I had to wear a heavy leaded ‘gown’ a throat leaded choker and gloves to protect myself. Zeus he was naked. Putting a 95 pound, frightened dog on a slippery X-ray table top and getting him to lie down on his side is not an easy task. With many loving words and reassuring stokes of love it was finally accomplished. The X-ray taken, then another or his belly. I lost a ½ carat diamond earring in the process. Ask me if I care. The X-rays showed little, he was too big for their machine. An ultrasound was next. That too was exasperating…..but did show something….I would give my soul for it to have showing nothing….We go back again next Thursday at 12:00. A tranquilizer will be issued and his chest shaved, then a very extensive ultra sound done. Until then, all I can do is wait and wonder and pray that my Zeus does not have cancer. That I am not going to lose the only thing in my life that I truly love. The only thing in my life that truly and un-conditionally loves me back, every day in every way.
I hate the wait and see game that is so often made a part of reality. I have been a player in this game way too many times…..my Mom, my brother, and now my only comrade on this earth. I feel very helpless, I cannot change what might be…but I can believe it to be different. And that is what carries me on. That it is not real and will not be real and life will be good and Zeus….Zeus and I will be around for a long, long time…just as planned.
I will continue to smile, play, hand out treats and Zosodeesue until the sun sets!! He believes he is fine and therefore so do I!
Our appointment is next Thursday and I once again I have been asked and will be allowed right by his side….I would have it no other way as I know he would do the same for me.
Dogs rule!!!!