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    Sorro, My Hero

    I should have been a psychologist. Even the crazy and the solitary ones amused me. In college, I befriended Sorro, a permanent fixture on the campus who freely manned the traffic and cleaned the sidewalk without pay. He thought he was Zorro, the hero of the oppressed, so he helped street janitors and traffic enforcers do their thankless jobs.

    His shaggy purple cape, black cowl mask, and dull wooden sword pulled me towards him like a kid to a candy store. Something about him made me feel guilty and want to help even though he said nothing. He lived in his own reality, but all his resentments against the world sounded like mine. His pain felt the same deep in my chest. Even when he gave up and moved on seemed a familiar dejection I had in mind when I did the same. His sorrow also became mine.

    Sorro’s ageing face crimsoned from dust and daylight. I knew he had a story to tell. His sleepy gaze, weary and vulnerable, reposed as if he was ready to be hypnotized. Spinning memories, told in lies and exaggerations, preoccupied him. Consumed by his past he could not forget, he spoke to anyone he met as though he wanted to be heard and believed. Underneath his deranged facade and beyond his wild tales, the truth and his honesty crawled out by themselves to expose what he could not directly say. I could tell where he just came from by just looking at the grime and stain on his overworn shoes that needed some mending. The scars on his arms protruded into keloids looking like they were fraught with childhood memories of abuse and abandonment and about to burst into vengeance and revenge.

    I listened to Sorro even though my friends told me he was a lunatic. Had he been a writer, he could have produced a novel filled with bizarre but philosophical thoughts questioning canons and defying logic. It never occurred to me, even in passing, that he might attack me or grab my lanky arms and throw me down a la Antonio Banderas and point his make-believe sword onto my neck. He let go even the red ants that crossed his path and saved them when the street he marked as his flooded. How could he hurt someone? There was nothing scary about him. What scared me was my own fear of digging what I had been trying to bury for years. When he said, “Time doesn’t really heal wounds,” I snapped out from denial. He showed me, without scorn or a hint of judgment, how to accept my destined lot.

    I used to buy him food and give him spare change as my way of thanking him. Sorro came into my life when even my belief in God, which should not have bothered me since I grew up prayerful and Catholic, angered and confused me. When I told him what I had been suffering that made me not want to live anymore, he laughed dismissively as if my problem was mindlessly easy and said, “Don’t give yourself a chance to suffer, to lose, and to die. That’s unfair to people who have no fresh air to breathe. You’re taking in the premium oxygen for nothing. You’re uselessly inhaling it away from them.” I knew what he meant: I must live also for others the way he had since his parents intentionally left him in a crowded place when he was three.

    Feeling like a preacher, he went further, “You’re god. Loving yourself is loving god. Killing god is killing yourself.” He made me laugh and shed my atheistic pretensions the moment he shared his existentialist thoughts that somehow made sense to me and drove my feet to enter again the empty church nearby. I cried out my penance, recognizing Sorro could be God’s instrument for my deliverance. When I got home, I threw away the bottle of pesticide I bought and planned to consume that day, my twentieth birthday.

    Sorro and I had remained friends until I graduated and moved out of the campus. He was lounging in the dwarf sunflower garden, a stone’s throw away from the asphalt road, where he usually hanged out and waited for the Manila sunset, laying down on the trimmed Bermuda grass, both of his shoeless feet resting on the mossy rock, either talking to the moon or counting the emerging stars, the night I finally drove off away from my old dormitory to start anew. I yelled his name through the car window and gave him my last wave. He looked at me as though he knew I was leaving or he just did not recognize my sweating face under the bleary glare of the streetlight. After a quick glance, he ignored me like he wanted to tell me he was tired. He turned his head and raised his gaze back to the dimming sky.

    The day before, I gave him all I had in my pockets: coins, bills, my Cross pen, and my opal ring. “Write your story, your poetry, and you can sell this ring when you need something,” I suggested. He said nothing, and that was the last time I talked to him and he listened to me. Not long after, I heard he was picked up by uniformed men and brought to a mental asylum after he threw feces and stale urine and shrilly cussed at the corrupt politicians who visited the University. What a hero!
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    Any comment? I won't mind if you'll bash my writing style. A feedback will surely help. Thanks.

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    A Sorro-ful tale, but you have managed to create a memorable image of this disturbed individual. Also we get a feel of the narrator's low self-esteem, or perhaps his/her search for answers..... ironic that this deranged individual is the one who gives them.

    A few points to ponder :

    he said nothing. He lived in his own reality, but all his resentments against the world sounded like mine.

    how do you know this if he said nothing? rather a contradictory set of sentences

    His sleepy gaze, weary and vulnerable, reposed as if he was ready to be hypnotized.

    'reposed' does not quite fit in here - 'made him appear' is what you are trying to say I assume

    the truth and his honesty crawled out by themselves to expose what he could not directly say

    rather an awkward turn of phrase - perhaps something like 'were there for everyone to see, revealing what he could not....'

    where he just came from by just looking

    2 'just's

    I grew up prayerful and Catholic

    again a clumsy phrase - 'a devout Catholic' should suffice

    You’re taking in the premium oxygen for nothing. You’re uselessly inhaling it away from them

    I also think this pair could be better written

    Feeling like a preacher, he went further

    telling the reader how he felt is too ambiguous - it is better to demonstrate it by his behaviour

    Overall a well-written piece..... perhaps in places you employ rather an elaborate way of saying things that would be better kept simple. Simple expression does not necessarily mean unadventurous writing.

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    Last edited by hillwalker; 08-11-2010 at 06:13 AM.

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    thanks, H. "You saved my day," a la sorro.

    Thanks for the editing help, the thing i need in short story writing.

    i should change "he said nothing" to "he begged nothing."

    "crawled out" to "manifested themselves". I used crawled out because of sorro's "affinity" to ants.

    the "premium oxygen" related to clean air on the campus sorro was proud of because he helped in the cleaning and maintenance of the university.

    Feeling like a preacher to "he made a sign of the cross and said"

    Thanks for reminding me to show not tell. I really appreciate it.

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