his bottle - where is it - my phone -
where is it?
my heart -
why can't it
slow down
so i can
breathe
my eyes are in the
next room,
he is laughing
because
we are going
outside.
there is nothing
there
i run up
stairs
confused
perhaps
i'm in shock
who
would do something
so
stupid as that
he laughs and laughs
as i hold him
tighter
and i turn off
the fan
we go
back
out
the marbled
stoop
is cool,
and nothing looks
wrong
but i can't stop
shaking-
holding him
tightly
but not so
that he
knows i'm terrified.
for the only
light shines
from his eyes
(and oh, the sun),
so perhaps i should
be calm
??maybe i will
be again
one day but
right now the smell
of burning
wood
is the only
only command
i know.