Sorry, my title might be a bit vague. I didn't want to make it too long.
Here's what I'm trying to ask; when you read a story -- fiction, nonfiction, historical, it doesn't matter what kind -- how do you imagine the story?
For example, when I read, I imagine the story in my head/mind. I imagine it similar to a movie.
But, when I imagine the story in my minds eye, I don't go into detail, but it still comes out as detailed. Confused? Me too.
When I read, I imagine the characters with faces, and facial expressions, and clothes. BUT, when I stop reading, if I try to envision the character, I can't do it!
I guess, when I read, I let my brain process the words, and then my brain gives my mind's eye an image while I read. But, when I stop reading, my brain stops providing me with the images.
I read, but I don't think about what I read. I believe that I let my subconscious provide me with the details. Unfortunately, since it's my SUBconsciousness, i can't access it just by thinking about it.
AH! I UNDERSTAND!! It must be my subconsciousness that helps me envision the story! I finally understand!
Oh, you guys don't really get it?
Well, I guess when I read, it's like I'm dreaming. And when you dream, everything feels real, everything is right there in glorious, fantastical (or terrifying) detail. But, when you wake up, you can't remember what happened in your dream very well. I realize now that that's exactly what happens to me! When I stop reading I can't clearly picture the main character, but when I read, the characters are there in all their glory.
WARNING! THE FOLLOWING PARAGRAPHS ARE UNCONTROLLABLE RANTINGS THAT I ACCIDENTALLY TYPED BEFORE REALIZING HOW OFF TOPIC I WAS GETTING.
THERE'S NOT REALLY ANY REASON TO READ FURTHER, but feel free to if you want.
I get very emotional when I read. I've cried countless times, and I've laughed so many more. I FEEL the story when I read it. I don't imagine myself in the story, but I FEEL the emotions, I FEEL the atmosphere, the grimness or the hilarity. That's why I love reading so much. I feel my best when I'm reading. I'm happiest when I read, because the AURA of the book is happiness, or if the AURA the book gives is sadness I'm terribly sad when I read it, to the point of tears or frustration.
Sometimes, I'll even mix up what I've read in fictional stories as being real memories of my own. I might talk to a friend and mention that I spent a lot of time on a pirate ship (the Jacky Faber stories) but then realize that that's NOT my real memory.
While reading the Jacky Faber stories, I started to fret about what might happen to Jacky, as she gets into A LOT of trouble. At one point, I worried myself so much over some idea that came into my head while reading that I stopped reading the book for weeks. I just couldn't read anymore because I thought that Jacky was going to die. I couldn't bring myself to read about her death, because that meant that I would have to accept it. I even became pretty mad at the author! How could he do this her?!?
Eventually, I literally got depression because of how worried I was. And I don't mean I was in a state of melancholy, I mean I was into the real full-blown depression (I get depression every now and then). And if you've ever had the REAL, hardcore depression before, you know that there's no way you could mistake depression for anything less than the worst state of mind you could have.
The reason I finished reading the Jacky Faber book (she didn't die! THANK GOD!) is because I felt so horrible that I couldn't take it anymore. I decided that I might as well read the book and see what happens. *At that point, I think I really believed that Jacky was going to die*
That fixed up my depression real nice. Well, not really, I was still feeling terrible for a long time after that, but it got me out of the *because the sunset is so beautiful it literally hurts me* funk that I was in.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, that when I read a story, it almost becomes my reality. I don't put myself in the characters shoes, rather, I become the characters, I become the story.
That's why I like reading so much. I don't just see a story, I am the story, and the story is me.
What about you guys? I'm not the only one who's subconscious tells me stories am I? Uh, did that make me sound a little crazy?