Walk the line

[Sapphire]

I often find myself walking, deep in thoughts but somehow following this pattern - avoiding the cracks in the pavements, only stepping on whole stones, pacing with one feet on the kerb and one in the gutter... Childhood games that turned into a way of walking Following that way of walking, makes it impossible to reach my destination sometimes. I always feel a bit disappointed when I have to let the pattern in which I walk go... But following it through would make it an obsession I guess

I walk down the street
footsteps on every stone
Cross the zebra on the whites
leave the asphalt alone

My mind is far away
and dreams are close

I balance on the kerb
Falling neither way
I need to keep this up
In this world I want to stay

My feet do not touch
any cracks in the pavement

Nobody seems to see, but me
the dangers on this road
While I deny their world
as the raven crowed

Often, I move in circles
barriers I can not cross

I wish I could make this
easy on myself, let go
But I can not betray the thought
What will happen when I do so

Time and life moves on
as I still walk in pace

I am definitely not sure about this one. Any ideas would be really appreciated. Right now, my feeling when I read this is "lets push that girl so she gets out of it". And that is not exactly what I had in mind when I wrote it

[~Sophia~]

Right now, my feeling when I read this is "lets push that girl so she gets out of it". And that is not exactly what I had in mind when I wrote it

I read it that way too. If that's not what you intended... step on a crack...let go! (also, kerb is misspelled - curb). Nice draft!

[PrinceMyshkin]

"Out of our quarrels with others, we make rhetoric," wrote WB Yeats; "out of our quarrels with ourselves, we make poetry."

So both the poem you've posted and the obsessive pattern of walking are quarrels you have with yourself. On the one hand, you want to get somewhere, without fear; on the other, you don't believe you can do so without following some magical rules. Both of these are part of you. Try to be gentle with and tolerant of both parts. If the strain between them bothers you all that much, consider talking with a therapist.

As for "kerb," that's the accepted British spelling of what N. Americans call "curb."