It's been awhile since I posted anything and now that I want to post I don't know what to talk about. let me start by saying that I have only 3 semesters left and by every single minute passing I'm getting more and more worried about what to do with the rest of my life, I mean i have alot of ideas and wishes and dreams but I'm not sure that I can make them come true. Creating something out of nothing takes courage and bravery, things that I am not capable of, I can't even stand up to my own parents,
Why does my life seem to keep repeating itself? It's like a wave, comes and goes. But it leaves a mark on me. Sometimes washes away the hardness. I hate to make the same mistakes people made before me, but I guess I have no choice. Every one has to go through them once. Wish it wasn't so hard to accept that fact.
So, the semester starts again. I'm still loving it, enjoying it, though I feel tired and I'm sure I'm going to make alot more mistakes than last term, it sucks. I want to start over...though
I'm beginning to doubt everything that I once believed in. Everything's starting to fall apart...I'm feeling lost and confused.This week I barely noticed the seconds tick by, or the wind blow pass my face.This morning when i looked in the mirror i saw a complete stranger staring back at me..i was SHOCKED, i really didn't notice who i've become.Counting the days that i've missed I now realize how easily I can lose track of the time simply by picking up a book or even a calculator.(!)
These are the things I hold divine:
A trusting child's hand laid in mine,
Rich brown earth and wind-tossed trees,
The taste of grapes and the drone of bees,
A rhythmic gallop, long June days,
A rose-hedged lane and lovers' lays,
The welcome smile on neighbors' faces,
Cool, wide hills and open places,
Breeze-blown fields of silver rye,
The wild, sweet note of the plover's cry,
Fresh spring showers and scent of box,
I start school tomorrow
Yup, third semester in ChE. My classes are in the noon and after noon. I put it that way so that i could re-read the lessons and stuff or go over a paper before a class in the morning, I'm an early-type person; my brain functions the best in early hours.
Any tips before i start?