day in a life

Well my second year is over, one more to go and than off to get another degree, hopefully. I really don't like this time of year. I never like attention so my birthday in April was just the start of a very anxious time of year for me. I am always very stressed out for some days before my birthday and I hate the itself. I don't want people around but for some reason everyone wants to see me on that day and visit even though they know I don't like it. I know it's because they care about me but I don't enjoy peoples company on that day.
Then after that I have exams and essays to do. I felt awful during my exams this year, it gets worse with every test. I feel like I have to throw up, scream and cry at the same time, it's the worst feeling. Then exams were finally over and spring is in the air, I don't like the summer (I guess I have said that a few times) I always feel bad in the summer.
My son had a school trip, two nights and that truly is a time I feel anxious and stressed. I try to fill my time with tv cause I can't settle down to read and if I stop I start thinking about what he is doing and I feel the stress and nerves, ugh, I just have a hard time handling it.
Then he comes home and I need to prepare his birthday! I know it sounds terrible but his birthday is worse than mine because I have to have a party and welcome people into my home. I hardly sleep for days before it. It's next Friday and I am planning a party for his classmates and then family.
After his birthday he will go to his dads and another thing I hate will happen, I have to go to work again in the home for the elderly. I so hate that job but I have to do something this summer when he is with his dad. I will only work every other weekend so that is good but I sooooo hate it.

so to sum it up, I don't like this time of year and I just want winter to come back and start school again.

Now the negative side of me has rambled on enough.

My son has agreed to put all the money he'll got on his birthday and then I'll add to it and we'll get a trampoline. I really want one and so does he, so we are going to get one after his birthday. I have a bunch of books I'm gonna read this summer, already finished two and gotten well into the third one. I am trying to be positive about this summer but it's just not my favorite time of year but my son loves it. He has asked me a few times now to be happy about it, and I am really trying. I am not gonna be working a lot because my son will be off almost all summer, now that he is in school his holiday is for almost 3 months.

I am looking forward to August, I'll be in England for a few days then and I just can't wait! the bookstores I want to check out and all the books I want to buy.

Well I have to go make dinner for the kid