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Greetings From Hell...

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Hello, all.

You might have perhaps noticed that I've not posted anything for about a week. There is good reason for my absence.

Not to scare anyone, nor to solicit sympathy, I tried to kill myself last Sunday. I put a cocked, loaded rifle to my throat, and kept my hand hovering over the trigger.

I don't recall much else about they day, only that I was told I stood off the police for around 45 minutes.

There is one good thing about friends: you never know whom they may grow up to be. One such friend was on that police force that came to try to reason with me. Chip Schular is the reason I'm alive right now. Without me having a true friend on the force who came when I needed him most, I know I would have pulled that trigger...

So I have been in a Mental Hospital again for about a week. The good news is I have hooked up with a new and I believe better psychiatrist and counselor. I'm hanging in here, and intend to try to keep a positive outlook on life.

Love you all, and thanks for always being here for me!

Dale

PS:

Write if you take the notion, I'd love to hear from you. I promise I'll answer every letter!

Dale Harris
406 Stone Way
Atkins, VA 24311
USA

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  1. neodora's Avatar
    Well,I'm sure that there are many people who are glad that you did not kill yourself.you may not know me,but I am a 13 year old child,and I have saved others and been saved from suicide.it really does feel odd.no one saved me,but just before I made the fatal cut(I do not own a gun)I realized all the people that this would hurt and that it really wasn't worth everyones pain.I also saved 2 of my friends from doing it.I have no idea why they were doing it.it seems that the latest thing over here for teens is to try to kill yourself and it really makes no sense to me.what do you think?
  2. TheFifthElement's Avatar
    I'm sorry to hear about your suffering, Pen. It must be a terrible place to be, to think that death is the only choice. I hope your new doctors can help you, and that you feel better soon. Take care, fifth (((HUGS))).
  3. NickAdams's Avatar
    Stick around Dale; I could use a pen pal.
  4. Themis's Avatar
    I'm glad you didn't do it. If you meet your friend again, say thanks for being there for you from me. I'd love to say more right now and speak wise words of comfort but I'm afraid I can't think of anything to say now, except: don't ever think of trying that again, okay?
  5. motherhubbard's Avatar
    Glad to hear you're hanging in there. I hope you get a good hold on things before cool weather comes in, Iknow things get harder then. You'll be hearing from me, Dale.
  6. pussnboots's Avatar
    I don't know what to say except I am glad you didn't go thru with it.
  7. Virgil's Avatar
    Oh Pen, my heart just dropped into my stomach. You poor soul. Thank God you didn't do it. I don't know what else to say but that my heart and my prayers go out to you. May God bring you peace. Let's hope this new doctor helps. I will write to you.
  8. qimissung's Avatar
    O.K. dear Pendragon, I'm glad the dark clouds cleared and you found the strength to put down your gun. I wondered about your state of mind; your poetry lately has been especially dark. I'm glad your alive, I'm glad you're glad you're alive, and I know your whole family is weak-kneed with relief that YOU ARE ALIVE. May God be praised for this small mercy.

    I'm glad you feel you have a better doctor. It is absolutely imperative that you have a good one. Because you have a long walk in front of you and we want to get you to a grand old age.

    Be well, and know that you are loved.

    Qimissung
  9. Niamh's Avatar
    I'm sending a big hug your way Dale. I might send you a card to say hello.
    (((((pen)))))
  10. Maryd.'s Avatar
    Hi Pen,

    Don't know you at all so really can't comment. But just want you to know one thing. Many people have been and will probably go where you have been and are right now. (myself included) And like yourself these people have got through and passed there issues the hard way. This will pass and I hope you have all the support you need. But I would still like to send you a big hug from Australia. Warm and kind thoughts to you.
    Mary
  11. Neo_Sephiroth's Avatar
    Love 'ya, man! I'll be sure to write to 'ya!
  12. Pendragon's Avatar
    You are all wonderful, and I've left you comments on your blogs...

    (((HUGS)))
  13. Logos's Avatar
    Dale, wow, sorry to read you're going through so much pain right now..sending you lots of positive vibes to get you through this difficult time. Take care!
  14. Janine's Avatar
    Dale, I am so sorry for all you pain and anquish. I am relieved to know that fate intervened to save you, sending you that officer you knew so well. It proves you are meant to be here with us all; we all care a great deal about you. I have high hopes that your new doctor will provide a breakthrough and turning point for you. I will say a prayer. I'm grateful that you are still with us. My sister is in a bad place right now, too. She has been in the hospital awhile; slowly doing better; so I do understand. She now has a better doctor, also. We must all hope for the best. Never give up; do what the doctors recommend and keep taking your medications. Life is so precious. *A big hug* ~ Janine
  15. 1n50mn14's Avatar
    Oh Pen, do feel well soon. I'm hanging in here, and intend to try to keep a positive outlook on life. That is the most important thing for you right now, and I'm glad to see you are obviously on the right track. =(
  16. toni's Avatar
    Oh Uncle Pen, my heart goes out to you.
    When you feel down, remember everyone who loves you and thinks of you. We will be here.. I will be here. I can assure you that. May God give you strength and happiness.

    Much love,
    Your Warrior Maiden.
  17. dibyendra's Avatar
    I recently came to know about your traumatic experience that you had faced in the near past. I am really sorry to hear that and I can imagine how distressing it had been for you while dealing with those situations. Please take care. My kind prayers goes to you and your family. I am so relieved to hear that you are getting better with the help of new doctors and your family members and many of your loving friends must also be feeling quite relieved after seeing you getting better. May the almighty god give you strength, support, and love! ~ Dibyendra
  18. samercury's Avatar
    All I can say is that I'm really, really, really glad that you're alive
    -Take care