desperately seeking a buzz
by, 01-03-2009 at 11:05 AM (815 Views)
It is time again for me to take a introspective look at what I am doing.
I cant go to a bar and just have one drink, then leave. Every time I go out I end up drinking way more than I intended to. Last night for example I went to the local establishment to have a bite to eat & a drink, while I watched the Raptors. A drink gradually became ten, and I wasnt even particularly enjoying it, but kept drinking in order to get that warm fuzzy feeling. I ended up staying till close at 2 instead of leaving at 10 like I'd planned. Of course I spent way more money than I should have.
Then of course I met a girl, K, she is going to phone me and we'll see about meeting up - because I was too wasted (despite not being buzzed) to not slur my words when I was talking to her. It is no wonder that my relationships tend to have a shelf life of around 3-6months, I am a complete & utter idiot when drunk (and not too sensible when sober)