A Broken Friendship
by, 12-14-2007 at 06:07 PM (1173 Views)
I am deeply troubled as a caring friend, and deeply offended.
For the past few weeks I have been tring to help out a friend of mine wo's been going through a huge stage of change, personality, style, everything pretty much, even friends.
Through my efforts, I wrote her a long email expressing how I felt (she was unavailable for a face to face talk or even phone) about this sudden change, it not only affected her past friends who were very close to her, but me as well. I hadn't realized that she was very thick-headed until now.
She mis-interpreted all that I said and simply told me "I don't care"
I went through I don't know how much to bring this to her attention, "your change is NOT for the best."
What can I do now? Nothing, she has pushed me to the edge, to where I cannot reach her, nor do I want to anymore.
The fact that I tried and failed stirs me the most.
Perhaps this was meant to be,
but I feel that my efforts were for nothing. I will not be there for her when she falls down on her knees and cries to whatever diety she praises.
I know I have to let go.
But I feel I have failed myself, and also her.
Her old friends let her go as did she them.
Now I am.
An old friend letting go.
She pushed me so far, that I show true disdain for her,
she's something I don't like, something I don't respect.
For trying to help her, she hung up on me, and started acting pissy towards me. Now being nice is easy, but slapping the truh in one's face is harder.
But I did that anyways.
Yet nothing reached her.
I realize, I care too much sometimes, I no that quite well.
But as a friend, she had not appreciated me as such, she left me in teh blue for so long recently, and yet I still appreciated her.
There was no reward for my actions, just the knowledge that a friend, a close one, who went through so much in the past, dropped me like a ticking time bomb, and when it blew, our friendship did.
questions I'm not sure how to answer, all I know is, I tried...
Are my actions justified, did I push her too much, did I do too much?
What wrong did I commit?