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, 01-14-2015 at 01:31 AM (2190 Views)
So graduation isn't exactly what I hoped it would be. I am so frustrated with everything
I don't even know why I'm creating this blog. I have a meeting with one of my professors who is actually my best professor in the sense of knowledge and wisdom and of course the worst in ethics. I'm supposed to meet him in about 2 hours and I don't even know why? Why did I even ask him for an appointment?
Everyone in my family is pressuring me to apply to grad schools. Not that I'm not interested. I just can't seem to find a school that would suit me. or rather suit/accept me. My dad is saying don't worry about the money blah blah blah. But paying 100$ as an application fee for a university that you have no idea whether or not they'll accept you is too much! I can't put that burden on them. It's not just the fee that is a lot, it's posting the transcripts plus applying for the visa and of course the money we'll be spending getting my bachelor degree out of the ministries hand. which is alot!!
Western Ontario university seems like a good fit. It has good facilities, great professors, and it has internal fundings- which means I wouldn't have to rely on my parents while I study overseas. But the thing is alot of other students apply. I tried contacting the professors but it's seems they get a lot of emails during this time and they won't open the emails unless you have someone from the inside which I don't.
On the other hand, Germany is a great place for chemical engineering students but it has no fundings and living in the most industrialized country in world is hardly cheap. I have a primary admission from Hamburg University of Technology, but it doesn't have any funding. So I have to pay for the first semester and then for my 2nd semester get work along with my studies plus get a teaching assistant ship (which is offered to grad students) so that I can manage my finances there. As those of you who have applied for overseas studies, you would know that you cant get a visa for another country unless you have a bank statement saying that you are able to finance your entire 2 years of masters on your own without any help from the government. It just keeps getting better doesn't it?
Eindhoven University of Technology is offering scholarships for chemical engineering grads. The scholarship is from a company in my field ( I think) stating that they will provide living expenses plus tuition fees for 2 years of masters, after that you have to work for 3 years for the company ( of course you get paid for it). This really interested me so of course I am applying for it. But.... (there's always a but) the documents for admission that they have stated they need is really.. unreasonable. they're saying I should list the entire subcategories of all the courses - major and minor- I have taken in my 4 years of bachelor!!! I went to my department asking if they have such a document to provide and they were looking at me like I'm crazy. It's literally like writing 200 pages! Do they even know what they are asking for?! Anyway the deadline for applying is February 1st. I wish I could've gone though.
Back to my other problem, facing my intimidating professor. Since all universities require references I asked him in an email if he would write me a strong recommendation letter. So he answered with an appointment to meet him today around 10. I have taken 2 courses with this man and both were fabulous for me, although he's really strict, his knowledge is unfoundable! (is that even a word?)
The first course I had with him I didn't get a really good grade but out of 20 students who were actually brave enough to take this heavy-loaded course with him, only 4 of us passed his class. The bad grade was due to him taking a freakin' Olympia instead of a final exam! for those who don't know: Olympia is like an Olympic in science. The other course I have with him, I'm at the top of the class for now- the final is in 4 days.
I don't know if he will give me the recommendation that I want, but I hope he does. Western Ontario is my first choice, and I don't want to get rejected....
Anyway, sorry for babbling. Just a lot of pressure with graduating.