day in a life

Now my boy has been with his dad for a week. My ex got married last Saturday and is on a small honeymoon in the country and my boy is with his grandma. I called her today to see how things are going and how the wedding was and she told me he looked so good in his new suit. He was so excited about the suit, it is a 3 piece. Anyway he is doing great and I think I am doing good.

I have been kinda busy, I went to see my friends from school and I saw The Amazing Spiderman, and it was amazing. I have been working a lot too and my brother came home from Italy this weekend and I saw him and his girlfriend yesterday. I truly can't stand her, she is mean and annoying, I will see them again tonight at my moms house so I am working on my positive look, happy and smiling look.

I have tomorrow off and I will be doing an odd thing.... my friend is taking photos for a book about dogs and the woman making the book gave her a list of what she wants in the pictures. One pic will be of Spock next to my lawnmower and one will be of me trying to eat candy with Sisko being annoying and trying to get it from me. I don't know how it will go but I haven't told anyone about it and probably won't.

I have been so busy most days and even nights since my son left I am kinda longing to be alone for a while. I plan on making tomorrow night a lazy night.

I have realized that I know how to be alone and how to make things work. I know as much as I can about what I will do next and I am focusing on a few things now like something I heard and have mentioned before that happiness depends on the amount of uncertainty I can comfortably live with and maybe I need a bit more uncertainty. I don't know where I will be in 10 years or even 5 years all I know is that I think I am ready if someone comes knocking...

I have also decided to give up any lists of a perfect life,man, job, anything. I love making lists and knowing what I want but maybe it's time to stop thinking and just try to be open to possibilities. I want to be in my comfort zone but I also want it to expand, a little bit, tiny little bit.

It's sunny on the ice now, I prefer to stay inside but I have to walk to my moms house later on. Tomorrow night my ex's mom will come and pick Sisko up and take him home with her for a few days. My ex will go to stay with her for a few days cause I am going to a wedding next weekend and it's on an island so I have to stay overnight. My friend is gonna have Spock but she has two dogs and a small child so she thought it would be to much to have both of them. Also Spock will be very happy to have a few days alone, I think. He finds Sisko very annoying sometimes.

Anyways gonna go get ready to go out again