being a proud jerk
by, 06-25-2012 at 12:44 PM (384 Views)
I hate how my pride often gets in the way. Today I heard my brother was going to the movies with his son to see 'Madagascar' and I wanted to see that movie with my boy so I called him and asked if we could come along since I don't have a car. They had big plans around this trip to the movie and there wasn't room in the car for us. I was so incredibly hurt that I just wanted to cry and not see them for a while. There is a small barbecue at my moms house after the movie and I didn't want to go cause I was upset. Then I picked up my son and it turned out he went with his dad to see this movie yesterday. I was still to hurt and proud I didn't want to go to my moms house. WHY!!
Sometimes I think I am just a jerk and this not letting other peoples action influence me cause they are not trying to hurt me, it doesn't always work. I still don't want to go to my moms house but I am going to because I don't want my pride to win also when my big fat pride wins I feel terrible all day and don't want to do anything and am just in a bad mood.
pride is annoying and I sometimes just want to push it down and let it die.
Another thing, before I go, my friend is very persistent on me meeting her boyfriends brother. I think I have made a list of a man that doesn't exist and I am not sure I'll give anyone a fair chance. I want a vegetarian who is a sci-fi geek and big reader with at least one kid and similar taste in music.
Is that to much to ask???!!!