by, 06-10-2012 at 05:01 AM (419 Views)
It's been some time since I posted a blog entry, and it's been some time that I've last visited this place. I was reading my earlier blog posts and I can't really believe how immature, young, and stupid I was when I first registered to Literature Network. A lot's happened since 2011 and all I can say is that it hasn't been pretty.
But for good news, I'm now the manager for a meat department. Temporarily. My manager decided to quit a couple weeks ago and it's been a little stressful since then. I've been on my own training another fellow coworker to wrap the meat correctly, tag it, and put it in the case. It's a slow process, but I now know what it was like for my first manager before he retired. Mike really must've had a never ending supply of patience for me. But of course, I was self-reliant when it came to wrapping meat, tagging it, stocking the deli and freezer cases; I was basically thinking by myself without needing help. This is something I'm trying to teach my help so he knows what to do in the event that I'm not available to help. My comment to him the other day was "If you second guess your decision more than once, or even twice, come get me." Good advice, I suppose.
My love life, or what little I have of it, is a complete ****hole. Imagine the most prestigious library in the world in complete ruins. That's how it is. Or was. Things are looking up in some places. I'm more outgoing than I was four years ago. I like to flirt a lot for some reason. It's weird. When I said that my love life was starting to look up, would you count a passive long distance relationship as looking up? I do and I don't. It's really stressful on me because she's not here to talk or give me a hug when I need it the most.
I can't remember the premise of this blog entry. Another side effect of the car wreck back in 2008. I've been slowing declining in all departments mentally, and I've noticed small tremors in my legs. I twitch a lot more when I'm least expecting it. I can maintain a facade that I'm all right outside, but on the inside, it's complete Hell and mayhem and chaos. I'm really unstable, suicidal, and not right at all. But like I said, you can't tell on the outside because I'm a brickwall.
I better get some sleep. It's late here and I have only one day off for a very long time to come. So I better enjoy it as much as I can before I go back to work on Monday. It's really good to be here again. If only the place was active still.