day in a life

It's official, it's summer on the ice. June 2 today and tomorrow is some big festival for sailors, I hate festivals like that and do my best to avoid them. I will be babysitting my nephew so I have a good excuse.

I am very tired of this summer. But what I am even more tired of is how easy I am to read I think. I can't hide my feelings and I think it often seems like I'm negative. People talk of the great weather and I can't hide the fact I hate it. When you dislike something most people love it makes you look weird and negative and that raises more questions. I am sure a part of my dislike for the summer is in my head. I feel like people go crazy over the summer and spend to much money and do things they normally wouldn't. Summer forces me out of my routine. I am very scared of spiders too, so that is a big part of my dislike. I don't like working in my garden but I love my garden cause it's perfect for dogs and a kid.

I spent four hours last week cleaning up and trying to make it a bit prettier and my back is still soar from all this crawling around on the ground.

There are no stars in the summer here on the ice, it feels like the sun is shining 24/7.

Summer does have a few benefits though, uhmmmm, like..... the trees are pretty, my son enjoys it, I can't remember more.

Well I am gonna put some sot dogs on the grill tonight for the boys and then we are gonna watch Robots (my son for the 300 time) and eat ice cream or some snack. They always have fun sleeping over.

I take my vitamins and make sure I get everything I need and I hope I'll see a difference soon. I dink orange juice with my iron and try and do everything I have heard. I feel less dizzy when I stand up so hopefully it's working. I think I am not as irritated as I was and I hope this lack of iron is the main reason for my short temper but I am gonna try and stick to a routine next semester and eat better and try to make things as simple as possible. I know there will be a lot of reading next two semesters so I need to make sure things go as smooth as possible.

My ex came over the other day. When he comes to pick up the boy he always stops for an hour or so, I am getting tired of it but I don't want to say anything cause we have a great relationship now. I mentioned that he should bring his girlfriend sometime cause I feel like I should at least be able to talk to her a bit. Now he never knows what to say and I hated that wen we where together when I felt bad he kinda always said something to make it worse, so when I said this that they should both come he told me that she feels uncomfortable coming to the place he used to live with me in. OK I can understand that but he went on and told me that she compares herself to me a lot. I told him that she is probably way better than me (cause she is, for him at least) but no he went on and told me that she feels like I am prettier and thinner than she is. I am thinner but bot sure about the other thing. I just can't believe he told me this private thing she is feeling! I am sure he just stays quiet when she talks about this or says something that makes her feel worse like he did with me.

I don't know, in some ways he is an idiot and I just hope she loves him enough to tolerate the things I didn't.