You know I always want to hear your songs...I always sing in the shower; I don't know if that is why the house next door is always empty or not.
haha yeah, i recorded that one, I actually did ONE last song, instead of taking a shower, dunno how that happend but it did lol, i wont bother you with it though unless you want to see it, i feel like im spamming myself too much. Um, mischief brew, american war, the cure (for some reason), and my friends music but thats all i can think of off the top of my head lol
You are always surprising me; totally different genre...I hope you're recording this. What type of music inspires you? What singers?
ok sorry lol this is the last one im doing till i get my new stuff so I thought id share it with you. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7MSYG3R2hI I like to musically whore myself anyway haha
Ilike the words and melody; very nice. You are very good at expressing the concepts. How do you do with the higher notes when you are not sitting? I'll bet if you could tuck in your abdomen and push up your diaphragm, you'd get a lot more range; but I don't know if you can do that while playing...unless you record the music first. You are improving so fast, it's amazing.
well im sorry you had to be with such an jerk off, thats not cool. I know the feeling though, people arent excatly intimidated by me so i get the same kind of bullcrap, but details wouldnt go very well publicly lol. anyway i know i just sent you a video and i dont want to overload or anything but this ones really idk im self concious about it lol http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VEEUdfvUTh0
I think sometimes, because we seem very gentle, people think they can push our buttons. I find that I have a few very dangerous buttons...I once woke up to find my first husband strangling me; I promised him that he had to sleep sometime and the next time he was agressive, I would tie him up during his sleep and cover him with something that bit...no more problems...
All of that made perfect sense, my longest relationship was fairly abusive, not physically but all the same, and I stuck with her for over two years, never really understood why I did so when I'd be made to feel like crap every night. No you arent ruining your image lol, for the most part ive been there myself, only im too damn wild and always met with full force back, well, sometimes anyway.
I guess another thing is that you get the feeling these people do have some great powers. I remember my dad was really violent, and it seemed like he could find us anywhere; later I realized that the other siblings got some psych reward from rating the others out, but it sometimes made us afraid to leave. One day, though, I decided the next time I'd meet him with a rifle...it's odd, they seem to see that look in your eyes and back off afterwards. Oh gosh, am I ruining my image?
I guess it's a couple of things. Like I've always heard that no matter how much pain a woman goes through during child birth; she forgets it when the baby arrives...I guess the high of endorphins or progestrone makes her forget the bad time. Maybe that's the thing with abusers; maybe the high the woman or man experiences with them is so much better than a normal relationship; or the high after the abuse makes them forget the pain.
