Sipping the Tea

"Anyway..."
Well, just 'any way' hardly ever is the right way.

Will these heels dig out my grave?
I’ve done the interior decoratin' and everything--
Now I just need to sink into it.
Anyway, heels never really fit me.
I mean, they fit my feet – just not me.
On days like these, I go diggin’ for the big baggy blue jeans,
Brother’s giant hand-me-down shirts
Hidin' and floppin' over bones and tendons
And all ...

"I just died a little inside."

But I guess that means you grow older too, a little, right? One more step deeper into life, closer to death. I don't mean to sound morbid-- growing older is a good thing. I'm still enjoying life.

I have to take my life by the reins before I can even consider leaving the beach. For this coming weekend, I had wanted to celebrate my brother's and sister's birthdays, and I had wanted to go to Augusta for my own reasons, but I know ...

I watched him go as the cars swept by
And the smoker's circle
Exchanged the Sunday morning news.
There was a squid necklace clutched in my hand (gasping for air
as my heart gasped for courage.)

I shouted at him.
He shouted back.

The day was mine.

I was the envy of the parking lot.

This time, I think I'll kiss him.
And if he returns the kiss,

I will be the envy of the world.

I'm not a spin-the-bottle kind of girl.
You can't catch me with seven minutes in heaven.
I prefer the game that makes you break a sweat,
The one that makes you try a little harder,
Reach a little farther.

Go ahead.
I dare you to prove them wrong.
Pull the laziness out from the center of you with a string –
It feels strange, awakening.
I want you to
Hit me with your passion,
Make me sob in envy
Over ...

Breadcrumbs


I wonder if he cried when he was driving away.
(The one time I needed to cry for an audience,
I thought of this) –
Long fingers gripped around the steering wheel,
Chest heaving,
Music muted -
Oh, brother mine.

The break came once-upon-a-time ago
With a slow, quiet kind of stab in the dark (the worst kind),
Not very long across, but very deep -
A loss of trust, oozing out of the gash ...