As an adolescent, I thought that adulthood would bring an end to the angst of feeling misunderstood and out of place. Surprise! I was so naively mistaken.
As I look around me it really isn’t about other people and my likes and dislikes of the circumstances we all find ourselves in right now. It is about being myself and being at ease with what I am. Only after finding the core self can we expect to join with others in a satisfying way. I call it the “core self” because I think
Oh, how strange are the people we make our attachments with...
I've been asked not only to be the "back-up" reader of the eulogy at my step-grandmother's funeral, in case her daughter gets too emotional to finish, but also to read Psalm 23 as part of the service.
I'm absolutely honored that my stepfamily feels that I am so much a part of their family that they want me so included...but you have to look at this from my point of view. I mean, yes, yes I know
Yes, I know I haven’t said anything over the passed three days but I didn’t really have much to say. Now I do.
My back aches, my eye hurts, my shoulders have a cold burning feeling, my feet hurt and I’ve got a headache.
The source of all of these problems?
School. Or more specifically my principal deciding to have an assembly today as well as yesterday. I missed yesterday’s, of course, but I had no option but to attend today’s.
Better start from the beginning.
Tomorrow I'm going to Bilbao.
I'll be there until friday.. working. But I don't feel like going, though I love the city (and have very good friends there).
Yeah, I guess the problem is that the aim of the trip is not the best of all, he he..
Over a cup of tea one evening at Stella’s place I asked her about her family. We had discussed a lot, about various things, but never really about her family.
She fell quiet for a minute or two, sighed and said, “It’s a long story…”
Was I imagining a momentary dazed look in her eyes? If I was not, then she was quick enough to veil it behind an intelligent firm expression on her face.
A long pause after that left me wondering what to say next. I tried giving her a look