i don't know who is the one you are missing or what you've been through. i don't have the least idea of who you are or the way you think. but please let me tell you that everything will get better. i see this is an old entry so probably now you are in a better disposition. i hope you are. i just want to tell you that i understand the way you feel. i might not be able to understand the reaons that have led you to this situation, but i do understand your feelings. i won't tell you to ignore them and pretend that you are ok and everything is fine. you have to live every single moment of your life the way it is in order to be able to get through it in time.but that does not mean that you should not try and make an effort to feel more relieved. you know, the best thing i can do when i feel really really awfully, is to be the psychologist of myself. funny ha?well, it does wonders with me. try to talk to yourself and explain why you have these feelings. it will help you find the real causes, face them rationally and get through them.
Problems have a way of mending themselves, and as spur said, if it is meant to be, it will work out that way. All shall be mended, or all shall fade. If it does not work, it wasn't meant to work, and that will have to be your consolation. I know this is hard.
I've found that you cannot shed tears about the past-- only acknowledge it, and make your future happier.
With a hug and a gift of strength, Amber
I suspected a loved one. The blessing an curse of love is the great feeling of joy and lloss all rolled into one. But if it is meant to be it will be. Nothing of value is won easily. Submitted with respect Rich
Loneliness can eat away at you if allow it. Not sure what your situation may be but thinking of fond memories of that someone may help. I would suggest perhaps a quiet walk--driving while depressed is definitely NOT a good idea for your well being and that of others. If you worship a God prayer can comforting. I think posting here is a start. Admission of being lonely is a step towards helping yourself.
The brain shutting down is to protect you from overload. If you can relax--playing music and just resting. When you settle down think of someone you haven't talked to in awhile and maybe make a connection with them. Hope some of this helps. I wrestle with the problem on a daily basis even though I have a loving wife and some friends it somehow often doesn't seem enough and I can't understand WHY I am so unsatisfied when my life such as it is is going fairly well. I generally get out of the mood by having the Lord hrist reveal His many blessings to me. This is NOT meant to preach at you--just give you some ideas. Going to read your next entry next and see if any thing else comes to mind. Rich
Just missing someone
My friend, what has prompted this loneliness?
I, too, have been feeling this way lately...
Oh that is terrible Guardian. Please don't do anything rash. If you are this depressed you need to see a doctor. For now just go and visit a relative or friend. Things will be ok. There is nothing so bad that one needs to end one's life. You're a good and decent person. You should take pride in that.
Virgil. I think teaching is the most annoying job. No matter what you do, you will always falling short. Most teachers are not qualified to do the job. Yet, the many of the qualified ones are not enthusiastic about it or their enthusiasm has been killed through the stupid educational system.
I'll write about some of the funny stuff in our educational system.
I have to say guys- In elementary or high school sometimes the families are to blame when kids fail. The lack of parental support is shocking and so so sad. Of course at the university you shouldn't have a B or higher and not know the content.
I agree Guardian. Your school system sounds as screwed up as ours. And what I always find shocking is that no professor or teacher ever blames himself. It's as if they do a job and no matter what the results are they are blameless. I know most teachers work hard, but the real question is whether they are working smart. Don't blame the students if they all fail.
Thanks for reading and putting up with such a sad poem.
Teaching is a great vocation but totally emotionally and mentally consuming. You can't just deliver knowledge alone especially at this time. A lot of times I consider quitting and getting a new job.
I consider teaching a vocation and admire anyone who treats it as such. I wish I had that ability to inspire, enlighten and inform as you obviously do. I undrestand your joy and feel something similar when someone shows faith in me/ Good for you.
This is wonderful. You must be a great teacher to receive such gratitude. There was only one teacher in my life who I've thought had a very positive impact on me; everyone else was either not knowledgeable enough, simply couldn't teach or - worst case - both.
That is one of the sweetest things I've heard. That really makes me even feel good that there is that brand of kindness in the world. You have every right to feel blessed.
Thank you all for reading and commenting. It's been the greatest reward i've ever had and came just in time cause i was just planning to transfer from my school but not anymore.
Wow, this is very sweet.
Those are moments when your profession probably gives you the best feelings that you have made an impact on a person and contributed something of value to their life. Congratulations.
It is so good to be acknowledged for one's work. We work for pay, and that is a necessity, but we also work and do our best out of pride. I am happy for you Guradian, you must have earned that compliment.
that must have been a great feeling. It's not often that students thank their teachers. You must be a special teacher.